Saturday, November 10, 2007

How to hear from God?

Sitting out in the alfresco area of our church, starts me thinking about redefining the lifestyle that i have been leading for the past 25 years.

Finally finished reading Joyce Meyer's "How to hear from God" It took me 2 months to finish reading the whole book, and yet some parts are forgotten already.. These few months of my life have been the most aimless and uninspiring moments I think i ever had so far..

The things that God has done for me are tremendous but my weak and uninspired self does not seem to be focusing on anything. And I seem to be stagnating at where I am.

Redefining my life: To trust God that He will direct my steps, one step at a time. To be at PEACE with the world and everyone else. God blesses my family with a little golden retriever puppy: Doogy! Redefining what my life means, what my purpose is in my life.

The latest book I aspire to finish would be: I Dare you to embrace life with passion; Joyce Meyer. When I was at the darkest moment, God led me to read the preface of this book. May the Lord reveal his revelation to me.

This is really a great place to relax and indulge in some self reflection..

So many choices to make, so many people to account for. Ask what is God's plan for this. Whether or not I feel peace to do any of the above.

God, please help me to close doors of opportunity if you think i should not be walking down that road.

Amen.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Stepping out into the dark and unknown waters

Realised today that its not a bed of roses for these entrepreneurs that have started out and have made it successful. Found out that I had to pay GST for the goods that I wish to import, found out that there might be an issue to import candies as they might be dutiable goods and I might need a licence.

Need to be prepared and do I charge a GST amount or do I need to finalize my art work readily. I wish to do things right in the Lord and thus I need to take that step of faith and not be like what I was in the past to just depend on things to happen. If i want things to take place, I must make the effort to be in the know and be clear of the direction that I am heading.

Am blown away by the ideas that I see all around, am wondering what the focus is then for our business?

Where is the unique selling point?

Everything pastel and then?

I need to start off somewhere, and I pray that God you will guide me and not allow me to be disheartened by the things around me.

I must remain strong to pursue my dreams and make them come true.

Start thinking and be sure.

Amen

God takes care of the little details

I wanted very much to get a casual black bag that is big enough for all my stuff! And while i was shopping at Tiong Bahru plaza today i couldn bare to part with the money to buy one! But God really takes care of the little details in my life.

Pastor Sally bought us gifts for the leaders! And normally wouldn it be a normal gift as she had to buy so many gifts! And she said it was just a simple gift!!!

But when i opened it up, it was a trendy and casual black BIG bag! God is amazing and I really thank Pastor Sally for blessing me!



If God can pay attention to such meticulous details, what more my future and my life? I was asking God for directions in my life, and like what Pastor Sally shared about her life, God is showing her one step at a time and I should trust God and have faith that he will show me where He wants me to go. I will take one step at a time, and he will open and close doors of opportunity for me!

Amen!

Jewel

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Corkboard

Friday, September 14, 2007

Amazing Love...

I thought we had a great sharing at cell today. Even at the leaders meeting yesterday, i felt that I learned a lot. Like the "Squeeze a testimonial" from Pastor Sally. It amazes me how much one can take God for granted for the good things that he has given us. When asked to squeeze out a testimonial, everyone had a testimonial and it all blessed my heart. It was great! : ) And we celebrated Jennifer's birthday with a very special pumpkin yam cake! Wah aha!




Darling said to try to thank God every single night for something he did for us today. So I am thinking what can I thank God for today..

I thank God for good friends around me that truly care for me.

I thank God for my family!

I thank God I still have a roof over my head!

I thank God for my darling, what would I do without him?

I thank God that he changed my bedsheet for me cos it was causing an irritation to me for my nose, and re-arranged the donkeys nicely for me so that once i came out of the bath, I had a nice and comfortable bed to sleep in!





I thank God for Pastor Rachel who blessed my sister, jerome and me with chocolate muffins!

I thank God that darling bought me a new camera!!!

And many more..

God is good.. I want to pray hard Lord.

Guide me in your direction.

Amen!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

The Cross Roads

I feel as if I have reached a certain crossroad in my life. A split between the envious earning of money, and the chasing of my dreams and passion. I get motivated by the fact that people are earning money, but on the other end it might all not be wat i like. I enjoy being with people, having lunch with my friends, without agendas, and just be who I am. God, this time I really need a sign from you. I really need to know which route am I to take that has your blessings. Close the doors that you do not want me to take.

God, please assist me to know what your place for me in this world is to be. Thank you.

Jewel

Monday, September 10, 2007

Lost dreams and soul

Been very lost recently. Cant seem to get anything going nor wanna sleep early. Yet in the wee hours of the morning, thats the time when you feel the worse. Just like what Pastor Frankie said; we are bounded by our past fears and failures that we cannot move on. We need to change and know that dreams are placed in us for a reason. Confidence in something that i must built in me. Procrastination is something i must get rid. Why am I not looking forward to life, and the future. Everything of me now seems to be stuck only now, this very moment and nothing further than that!

I need my inspiration and my soul back in order for me to chase my dreams. Do not be demoralized. For it will lead to a destruction of your dreams.


May God guide me and be with me on this tough journey that never seems to end. Or rather, its always the darkest before dawn.

Jewel

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Organizing my life

Was getting quite excited about the new additions and the new changes in my life. Taking up singing as my passion is something that i have always dreamed of but never ever started. How much of it will be a start of something new I am not sure. But its very rare that I am having that much desire for it. Its always been there but never something that is so real and so strong.

Of course the pressures are even higher.

Need lots of preparation and time scheduling.

God help me in this journey.

Amen

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Success...

"From a Banker to a Baker..." these were the words that caught my eye from the magazine: Vanilla.

Almost immediately i took it off the shelf and without perusal went ahead to make payment. At this moment in time, these words are crucial to me. I am contemplating, what is success? What is my passion? Are there any out there who thinks like me? We all strive for a future which we thought; we had it all planned.

We came through the system, fought through our education system. Found a good job that pays well, and struggled through the days and in no time realise that commitments have gotten more, and seemingly we seem to have no other time for our passions...

But till the day our tolerance level reaches its max.. We are at our crossroads.

I came to mine. And the most inspiring thing that happened to me is to find this magazine. There were so many ladies that have went through the same stage as me. And have courageously stepped out in Faith..

In this age, to be able to step out of our comfy careers and get started on our passion is really remarkable. Many a times, I contemplated to give up my dream. To give up my dreams to the realism of financial pressure. But i think our creator above never wishes for us to give up.

I really would encourage many to read the magazine.. Its different truly.

Its real women issues.

Even today in church, Pastor Frankie shared about Success.. or rather it was actually on THOUGHTS.

I am sitting in my room now, thoughts are already encompassing my mind. With the music in the background.. "All that I am, all that I do.. U.R.Y" Beautiful...

Just as I was about to complain about all that I am doing, God sends the sermon message across to me beautifully. Can I do it as unto the Lord?

"You are why I sing, you are why i love?"

I feel happy doing Hungrrry, being able to serve and in future try my baking.

I wanted to complain why is it only me that takes it seriously but i think, i cannot force people to take it as seriously as me. I can only inspire people. And to be a leader, i need to be a servant.

So apt, "Be transformed by the renewal of the mind" was the first words I hear from Pastor Frankie,

We have great potential to do great things for God. All we need to do is to capture our thoughts. God has assigned us and anointed us for greater things.

But what are this great things:

It can be as small as helping the old lady collect cans for a living. Or as big as Mother Theresa helping the poor in the world.

All these are great things, it just depends on the angle and the perspective we look at things.

Not everyone is called to be a Superstar, or a great politician, or a great docter. But everyone is called to do something great in one's life.

I want to pray for a Paradigm shift in my thinking.

"Reprocess your thinking process; put on the mind of Christ."

Pressing toward the Goal

Philippians 3

12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,[d] but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

God showed me this verse, just as I was feeling burnt out, just as I was afraid and just had a little argument with Jerome.

He is afraid as well, of the life ahead. And I do not want to hold him back from his success. I will be the reason and the motivation for his success.

And as God calls us to press on, we will press on in life and achieve his purpose for us.

Amen.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

MVs made by fans

I think its to be applauded, a lot of effort has been placed to do this.. And they know the show very well! haha!





Jewel

My Passion For Singing...

Lets compile a list of songs I will feel for to sing..

Haha! This is OST for It all started with a Kiss...









Jewel

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

It all started with a kiss 2

It all started with a Kiss

I spent the last 2 days watching this drama serial; it all started with a kiss! Haha! A little slow for me to only see it now, but it set me thinking of alot of things. Many things in life, we have to work for it, and God will give you opportunities but not give you the gift straight away. And all these people who have cool jobs, have worked for it. Even in one of the last few episodes when the Rich "Qian Jing" wanted to marry Zhi Shu, she herself stated that she wanted to "Bu Lao Er Huo" Basically to not work hard for anything, and yet still gain from it. Which turned out fruitless. I am 25 already this year. And there were so many dreams that I wanted to achieve, I believed that God meant for me to do greater things. But i feel stuck here in my life. I need to move on. I need to work hard for my dreams. And not take the easy way out.

But first. I need to clarify my dreams and my prayers to you Lord. Lord may you let me seek your will. What is it for me to do?


Saturday, August 25, 2007

A Divine Intervention

I started to pour out my feelings before I started to read my quiet time chapter for tonight.. And the verse for tonight was:

Psalm 56

3 When I am afraid,
I will trust in you.

4 In God, whose word I praise,
in God I trust; I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?

I know its God's way of re-assuring me, I will not be afraid, I will walk and commit all plans to the Lord. And he will prosper me. Amen.

Thoughts and stuff

I never thought growing up will be so difficult... With many responsibilities and many decisions to make. I want to provide for my daddy and mummy that they might have a good life. But i feel tired chasing and chasing.. I feel tired of the money game. Sometimes i just feel that I dwell too much... and that i need to uproot and take some control in my hands. I need new renewed faith in my life and let not others dictate what i can or cannot do.

Lord, I need your divine intervention in this life of mine. Where i know that human are prone to error, lord help me to ne more like you. To love and to be loved in return. To save my parents, out of despair, loneliness, desperation and the rat race.

May your abundance be on us Lord.

Amen.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Thoughts and reflections

I just read through my blog, and realised that the day before i shared on not worrying. But yesterday, i received all my bills and I started to worry. Will we have enough money for the new office, will we have money to sustain the tenancy, will be be overstretching overselves.. Sometimes when we think that we have learnt something, we might not have. Mould these "ambassador of Christ" habits into our lives and we will become. I felt very lethargic today, still need to dress up formally and to go ahead to meet the client, but I guess habits need to be rebuilt.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Yesterday, I just told myself to remember to be humble, that wealth and riches can always bring one to a stage where they think its all themselves, that they are the ones that made it happen. I do not want to enter that stage. But I will trust in the Lord and know that all that we have is given by him, he is the God of Miracles. And today's verse in Titus 3:2 "to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."

I was sleeping that day and God woke me up with the song "I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned. I'm alive and well, your spirit lives within me, because you died and rose again." It just resounded clearly in my head that I wake up singing it. God is amazing, he never lets me down and is always there supporting me. Thank you Lord.

Amen.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

My Daily Bread

Success is habit. And I have been moulded into my routinal habits for 24 years, its time to rebuild that habit, and perhaps in the last 8 months these habits have been magnified. To an extent where I need to relearn successful habits, of waking up earlier each day to work, and to accomplish more in my work. But also more importantly, I realised that coming over to Property is really more than what I expected, I have my own time to read the Bible, and digest what God is saying to me each day..

Today's word "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race. I have kept the faith" This is very encouraging to me. That the Lord wants me to fight a good fight, whether for the church, for my family and or for my Business, it requires a good fight. And that at the end of it all, i need to keep the faith, keep my faith strong. To stand upright in times like these, where money is the driving factor. Just earlier in the week, the verse taught was about the Love of Money, seek contentment. And not chase money to a point where we are wicked. God has blessed me abumdantly, kept to his promise, that one should not worry but instead put our trust in the Lord, for he has promised that he will take care of us, even the birds in the sky, he makes sure they have food to eat. And God has shown me his mercy in times of trials. I shall be at peace to do his work. Lord restore me to what you want me to be, to be the light that shines in this world, that I may really place aside all my burdens and what ifs to chase after you.

Even Apostle Paul said , in times of trials when everyone deserted him, only the Lord stood by him, and gave him strength.

Lord, I commit our plans to you, that if it be your will, the office space will be a blessing. As what we shared with Pastor Sally, and the office space might so well lead to greater miracles. I commit the finances into your hands, that you will bless these hands that will be placed into the plough, that through our commitment to the place, we can also bring light to the industry, and sow a seed into their lives.

Also Lord, take away my fear, my inadequacies, that we may be able to influence the world, and not let it influence us.

Thank you Lord.

Amen.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

My Daily Bread

Very Happy today! Woke up early to do my daily bread! Today's reading is in 1 Timothy 5. The heading was: Advice about Widows, Elders and Slaves.

"Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers and youger women as sisters with absolute purity."

Brings me to a point that I realise, it does not matter how "older man" treat you and how they can be wrong. It matters when you do the same. Never treat a person harshly, for the spirit that follows the action might not be a good one, thus ruining a relationship with a fellow human being. Its going to be tough, but I guess the Bible is all about love. Let the evil ones be handled by God, why then should we bother our lives with these people? We still need to love and care as much as we can, but if advice falls on closed ears, then perhaps I should move on.

A women when married, are given the task of performing good deeds? Like bringing up the children, showing hospitality, helping those in trouble, and all kinds of good deeds. Its a no wonder isnt it? I always thought that I will never have the thoughts of these sort. This shows why most women like being hospitable, when we go to our friends' place, the mothers are always the ones being hospitable. While we always complain that women are kay poh, well its because they like to help those in trouble? Ah HA! A good understanding of the women race! hahaha!

I like this phrase, "Do not muzzle the ox while its treading out the grain, or the worker deserves his wages." Treat people who deserve it with respect right and do not restrain and punish these people.

"DO nothing out of favourtism." - Be fair in our judgment and show impartiality.

"do not share in the sins of others. keep yourself pure." - Its very difficult in this society today. And especially so when you enter into a world where money is the driving factor. Its sometimes a very thin grey line.. Which you need to tread slowly. I am glad this decision was made, not to be driven by money but by conscience.

At last but not least, I pray that Lord you will open my eyes in this world Lord. Show me and guide me. Provide me with the wisdom I need in this world today. That I will do good deeds as unto the Lord. That I shall seek knowledge and wisdom more than gold and silver, to seek a good name more than gold or silver.

Lord, open up my eyes, and take away my weariness for today lord. Guide me in this new life changing direction, I commit my plans to you today Lord. That I will make plans and only count on you to direct them.

I pray all this in Jesus name.

Amen!

Its going to be a great day! Great morning!!!!

Jewe

marina south steam boat!

it was a very hectic morning! Needed to do my work and also make sure i do the most productuve ones first! And then went to meet thia, we went shopping.. At first it was just watching her shop... Haha! Then after we rested for a drink, we continued and i bought 2 new pairs of shoes and a white bag! So happy cos one shoe is flat good for walking around and one is for work... We went to meet dede and ck came to pick us up! Haha ummm went through the round about twice lor! Hahaha! Anycase, we went over in his new honda accord euro r to marina south!

Jamified day as what ah thia put it, the traffic was bad.. well Friday night! Happening!!

We had a great time eating and laughing at how the GUYS' belts were expanding! From XL Sean CK to L Jerome and M for Thomass! Pity Mercy and Daniel couldnt join us!!

We ate crabs tat enjoyed their spa session and prawns that were alive! Jerome cooked one with a SLOW death by grilling him...

Drank lots of water and wanted to go into the bowling alley to take a neo print.. but.. its closed down.. guess its not too much in fashion nowsadays! But still we took lots and lots of pictures with the annoyance of all the rest! THomas nearly pulled his hair out! Wah haha! But THomas got his new car wat! NEw JAZZ so we went on a rampant exchanging of cars to test out! Haha! Smooth is the word for CK's car.. and THomass one is POWER! I like!

So then the guy went to carry on their car conversation, while i was busy taking photos, and the 2 went to the toilet and back.. without having any 20cents to pay for it, then left for the toilet again! Hahahah!

Overall it was fun... we met an integra clan, we thought wanted to "qie" them! BUt well, i think they scared la, run off first.. haha!

It was a FUN FUN FUN day!!! Crap sia,some of the things they joke about...

Tired from all that standing, didnt realise we test car, talk about car and stand there for 1 1/2 hours... gosh...

Next week, clementi "zi bao ji" said ck.. two positives.. YEAH RIGHT makes a negative aha hahah!

Jewel

Friday, June 22, 2007

Taking the harder path

I realised that life has been easy, these past 8 months. Resting, eating, sleeping, enjoying life. Though paradoxically, i am not enjoying it much. I aspire more than these. But I am only willing to put it lesser than it is. Thus, why then in the world will I be able to get the reaped harvest.

All along in life, I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of mediocrity, in fact I tell myself that i am above average. Actually I am mediocre, and perhaps lesser than mediocre. I expect less of myself. How then can i expect others to expect more of me. I think that my personality or character will shine more than my appearance. Like what Pastor Kong said, it is those that think they will normally be more eye catching like mary and martha, martha feels that she has done a lot for church, she is the outspoken one, with initiative and zest to scurry around and be busy. But she was in fact unlike mary, who sat at Jesus' feet and asked for more of him. I am Martha. Busy scurrying around trying to change church, change lives, when I myself am not hungry for the word of God, why then should anyone else that I am trying to influence be.

Martha, is too busy, too full of herself and her own capabilities. I need to step aside, and just be in the presence of the Lord. For once, just dwell and not think that I have contributed so much to church.

I have been excaping all this while. Escaping from the truth and the reality. I have been lazy and unconsistent. I need to change. Its time I learnt how to be a woman. There will not be any Fairy Godmother, who will appear and change me immediately into a Princess. Its not going to be as easy as it seems in the movies. People who made it in life, are all self taught, and self learnt. They aspire and dream, then they go about finding the way to do it. Make full use of their resources to do all that they are able to do.

I have decided that I will face up to my reality and work towards my dream, be disciplined and not be lazy. Be the one that God wlll be proud of.

I will make myself out to be the woman i want to become.

Lord, help me, to walk the path that I should walk, graciously and I will be able to fly higher than an eagle.. I will be able to soar for the Lord.

Amen

Jewel

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Stressed

Feeling very stressed now.. Bills piling up.. and not sure if I am getting the job at IPB.. THink I really need a breakthrough. I will be able to make it through. Will pull through my refinancing deals, as well as get my IPB position, I am still young and will be able to make it through. Lord, please help me.

Jewel

Nancy Drew

Going to watch Nancy Drew later! So excited! haha! Reliving my childhood memories!



Feeling hungry now..

Gotta eat..

Jewel

Ratatouille

Just saw the trailer for the movie, suddenly filled with the urge of going to Paris. Must be a beautiful country... Longing for the day I can go there with Jerome, just being there enjoying what God has done in our lives.









Jewel

Habits of Life

I think its amazing how just by changing slightly your habits, by not giving in to my laziness, I can change a day just like that. I finished keying in the leads, and I didnt give in to my sleepiness! Its all about discipline! : )

Jia you!!!

JEwel

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Decisions

"Its not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are." Roy Disney.

I read this same phrase or rather am seeking to understand this same idea while reading 7 Habits of Highly Effective people. What are the inner core values? MY personal mission statement in life. I can seek to make tonnes of money. And neglect whats most important, or seek to add value to what I can achieve and yet be comfortable. Or more than comfortable. Property and Banking. To make a choice seems so difficult but according to Roy Disney, its as easy as ABC. Thats when you know what your values are.

What are my values? When the author asked me to picture my Funeral, picture what my family, friends and colleagues would say about me, I pictured them remembering all the good times we spent together, having coffee, having fun, making sushi, cracking lame jokes, travelling together. I didnt picture them to remember me as someone chasing money. Or rather, I valued time more than money. I will strive hard of course, but looking at how Jerome works in Property, would I really want that? Or would I want my weekends to be peaceful..

There are people who are successful and owning properties while working.

Its not how much you earn, its how much you save and invest.

Its a long journey upwards, but I guess life will be like that.

Signed,
Jewel Tan

Monday, June 04, 2007

Leadership

Its true what Jerome said yesterday of me; I am lost, depressed. And most importantly tired out, thinking I do too much, thinking that I have sacrificed much. Looking back on the days that I have seeked to prove my worth in the bank. But the days are in the past and I have to learn what I need to learn from those lessons. Whether I am ready to accept the huge responsibility that God might have for me. The plans that God has in store for me. To be self employed or rather to go out on my own at a time like this to explore seems fearful. But God will always be there to hold my hand should I fall. The qualities of a leader I read from simpletruths.com gave me new light. The story of Kindness, and yet not expecting anything in return, tat is what I really call an act of kindness. So I see it that sacrifice without expecting anything, without recognition, or complaints is the truest form of rock solid leadership. I need to learn how to do advanced planning and to influence those that I need to influence.

2 weeks from now, I need to take cell. Lord, I pray that you will give me the strength and the ideas and the words you wish for me to share about. Lord, may you take over and let the influence that you wish to have be imparted.

I need strength and most importantly discipline as I step out. I cannot turn back and look and think that the world will stop for me. Only take what I can take. The discipline I had when I first joined Citi. The drive and determination. I will need to succeed to give my parents what they should deserve and before any illnesses or old age comes upon them, I would like them to enjoy life. Most importantly I wish to inspire Jerome and be the woman behind his success. That his family will be ready to accept Christ and most importantly for them to move to another level in life. I must do it. There is no one that will help me but myself. I will trust in the Lord and soar on Eagles wings. Let my life be a testimonial to others and may I be a great leader unto you Lord. I pray that you will give me the Long-term vision, and the strive for excellence in all that I do. That I will Plan, I will be disciplined. And my enthusiasm never be killed... It’s never by me alone... Lord let me take on this responsibility and t sacrifice without complaints, to have the humility in myself, to influence and change lives, and only those that I am able to change Lord. and the Perseverance to go on...

I need to be prepared, to let my siblings take on a new level in life, for my parents to be saved. To change myself for once and for all... to not accept mediocrity as a norm. But to take on my charge in this life. As William Penn said, I will only pass through this life once. I need to make the most out of it, for I will only have one chance. Once chance to be 25. Only once to pass through 5th June 2007.. once its gone, it’s gone forever.

I need to take charge of my life on my own, with God's help. I cannot wait and hide no more. Time waits for no man.

Isaac once said that I will be able to make the devil fear me for what I can do.. Jerome said many a times, that if I put my heart and soul into anything, I will be able to do it. Mr. Ong once said that he is sure I am capable to be successful, all my colleagues thinks I can make it. Dede always thinks I can do it if I set my heart to it. Nicole and Sean think so too. Even Aunty Gwen once said that Jewel, you will the light that shines bright for many to come to Christ. Even Cyn's mum thinks that of me.

Inside of me, I am the only one who thinks that I cannot. I am the only one who thinks tat I cant. I am the only one with the fear.

Lord let me be courageous in you and dare to dream and aspire to fly.

Let my life be glorified unto you.

Amen.

Jewel Tan

Friday, February 02, 2007

A gift from Regina




Today I was realy not feeling too good. And God is good, He sent Regina on her way! : ) haha! She was so sweet, she gave me a Red Beetle from her God ma, who drives a green beetle! It was a gift from her to her God ma, and now they gave it to me. It means alot to me. I will attain my dream one day. And it brighten up my day, its great to know that there are people around me that cares for me. She is a great lady!

Amen! Its my blessing to have known her, and may GOd bless her abundantly as well!

Amen!

Jewel

Compliments and Blessings from God

I want to start counting my blessing from today onwards!

It was a blessing, that my boss decided to pay me for the OD that I signed. Its amazing as i never expected it to come. God knows.

Its been a pleasure working with my 3 customers so far, the working relationship is different. I received a CNY card from one of my customers! It was great! Also, Ms Wong was very nice to even mention me to her RM to make sure that I can learn from him. Its a blessing!

Also for Mr Chang, to know him as a Christian, is a blessing, and also for him to compliment the service that i provided, made me felt that it was worth while.. God has a reason for everything. And may God bless my father in his business. I love my dad, and want to make sure that he succeeds.

Another testimonial is about my bro and his gf. He has decided to make a change in his life, he slept earlier than me today. Its amazing, she went to sleep too. I pray that this will last, and that God will do a miracle in my family.

God is great.

Amen

Billionaire Dream

My latest aspiration: TO BE A BILLIONAIRE.

Heard from Marcus, that if one were to be a Billionaire, you would have to spend a million dollars every day for three years before finishing up your fortune. It inspired me. Inspired me because then I would be able to do so many things, help so many people. Even if I spend a million dollars buying properties everyday, the law of investments, I might end up making money instead. Haha! : p

Ching Koon said, one day if i were to appear on the newspapers as a Bilionaire, he would eat the papers up, Haha! I think there will be such a day. Amen. But only if God willing.

Amen.

Stirring up of the spirit

its been a tough time for me. Seemingly I should be more focused in my job and to be able to concentrate. But deep down within me, I am unhappy. I am happy with the friends that I have made with my colleagues. But I am unhappy about where I am, what my abilities are? What my talents are, where can they bring me? I shopped around today and found that I have dreams and ideas and wants and desires, but they all flew away in time. I need an re-organization and a decision to be focused. I need to trust God, for without that trust, I will not be able to find the ability to stay strong in my world today.

Jewel

Monday, January 29, 2007

Our Deep fried Spices Seafood Idea




wah, darling had this idea for deep fried food with different spices! And we all thought it was a great idea! We are going to work on it! Hee.. Oh and we had impromptu bbq! Fun!!!! It was nice!!! With the food just right, not too much and not too little and the weather was just right... chilly wind and warm bbq fire.. with nice food.. shoulddo this more often..

Hee..

Jewel

Friday, January 26, 2007

God's Miracle Blessings

Its been an amazing journey for this loan, I was confident of going to meet my customer. But God uses extreme situations to allow us to see that it can only be God and no one else, its not us! When you take care of God's business, he makes sure your business is taken care of. And he showed it to me today. He gave me the approval, and even before i asked for it. Thank you Jesus! So exciting! I need to also learn my lesson, that God has for me. Never to go to an appointment without making sure the customer is alright with the terms and conditions in it. Make sure you think for the customer and if u were in their shoes would you accept the loan?

Its all about empathy and also to be prepared in your field. How do you present a legal document without knowing what are the contents? And I need to learn my lesson, never to "smoke" my way out. I need to add value to myself and learn the terms. That is when I am a different sales person and I can get my pool of customers. Be disciplined now, and keep to my listing. Always update my agents leads, cold call leads, and hot leads. Start cold calling and getting new leads. May God bless me here and lead me to where he wants me to be.

Amen

Jewel

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Doing Business

God always has a greater reason and sometimes we are so blinded by our present that we cannot see the future. I kept questioning God, why he placed me in this place, why SME banking? I trusted in myself, my own vision, my own strength. I did not trust that God will take care of my family burdens financially. But today i ahd some clue of why God place me there.

I met a customer today that blessed my heart, there was a conviction in my heart to strive and try harder for the customer although all the odds were against it. and also I knew that i might not be paid for it. But I just wanted very much to help. And to my pleasant surprise, he is a Christian, and he prayed... he prayed that God might help him to get the loan if it was meant to be.. God is amazing...it can only be Him at work...

He shared with me, the blessings and miracles of God.. how he blessed him.. He said, when he asked God for a thousand, God gave him a million. When he asked God for a million, God gave him millions, I pray now that no problem come over this loan, I declare it in Jesus name to cover it with the blood of the lamb, that this will be a testimony unto God! He made me see that God is there. He said one last thing: Fear God. It was exactly what I read in the Bible, Ecclesiastes that everything is meaning less but Fear God and enjoy what he gives us.

I learnt then not to be a quitter, not to listen to what others have to say but to trust in God and to give him the glory. I was very confident today to sign the loan, but then God taught me a lesson, to know that I need to be prepared and there are lots of things to learn to add value to myself.

Both my customers that i met today told me that in Business there are bound to be failures and people cheating them of money. Its a dark world out there... but God is the light... I think God wants me to be prepared, for what i do not know.. but its all in God's hands..

Amen

Monday, January 22, 2007

Grandma's Birthday

Today was ah ma's birthday, I had fun, it was great hanging out with my family and cousins.. I wanted to take lots of pictures with my family, so afraid that time will run out, suddenly a fear of losing people came over me, like whats the meaning of life then if it were meant to end. If time was to keep on going and never stop, people coming and going in life..Just like what King Solomon said in his writings, that everything is meaningless, but does that mean so.. he said to fear God, Really afraid of what will happen if I cannot manage to save everyone in my family, I need to do that, save everyone...

I love all of my family and friends, and I need to first share with the ones closest to me.. May God save them Lord, may you give them peace at heart.

Jewel

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

God answers prayers

I jus read thr my blog entry for yesterday... i wanted God to do a miracle for me cos i did not know how to bring the topic of God up.. and my grandma was the one who brought it up n say tt my aunty's uncle was on his death bed and they wnet to say their last words. and someone prayed for him and he was miraculously healed! Amen...

That is a testimonial by itself, that my grand ma will be saved!

Amen! I am inspired!

There is HOPE!

Jewel

Unrest in the spirit

May the God
of hope fill you
with all joy and
peace as you trust
in Him, so that you
may overflow with
hope by the power
of the Holy Spirit.


-- Romans 15:13

I am really feeling lots of unrest today... first was apostle in hospital, now its my grandmother..
and it might be stroke... understand the fear that everything is really like chasing the wind..
what can i control.. then i came across this verse.. when i first read it, didnt mean anything
to me.. but then i went back n read it again.. I really need all the joy and peace that God will give n i need
to place all my trust in him...

Amen...

Jewel Tan

Just not too good

Today when I woke up, I just cant go to work, my nose is killing me. Think its the overweariness...

Need rest....

So many things happening, the weather is terrible.. but i know one thing for sure, God is still on the throne.. Someone out there is getting married this weekend, someone's baby is about to be birthed! Someone just got a dream job, a pay increment, a new found relationship. Someone is planning to propose later in the evening...

There were times when i looked out and remembered that while I am here experiencing this now, someone is out there experiencing another thing. Today I really felt that I needed space.. first time in my life I felt that way..

Very tired to face a lot of things... Very sick to think..

Jewel Tan

Monday, January 15, 2007

Life is chasing after the wind

So many things have happened in the span of a week. Apostle is still in ICU, and my grandma is also in hospital. They say that her heart moved.. into the centre of her chest. Mummy said that her heart has all along been very weak. Very afraid, she is not saved yet, I do not know when to start how to say it and what to do. I need to have faith. It seems impossible. But all things are possible with God..

She seemed happy to see us today, felt so bad that I only arrived so late.. Really need to pray for her. Need strength to continue.. Feeling sick now, wanted to take MC tomolo, but I wish to work too.. Need the money, and also need to think how i should handle pasi's problem. Should he go ahead, will it be a curse... God, I need your help. I need you to work a miracle Lord.

You are the God of Miracles. Lord, I pray that you will show me a clear direction. I realise now that I was over-reliant on apostle, that he would always be there, guiding and giving me advice.. Its time to grow up...

Its time to hear from God and grow closer to him.. Yesterday was a sign that God gave me, He is so close to me.. he knows my troubles and what I am thinking. He knows the trouble that I am going through and he will keep me strong, my family strong, apostle strong.

I learnt never to take ou lives for granted, never to take our mobility and ability to speak for granted.. That we need to treasure all that we have..

I need to rest.. need to be able to think properly..

May God allow me to rest well and for tomorrow to be a great day!

Amen.

Jewel Tan

Sunday, January 07, 2007

My Jie Jie's Housewarming

I enjoyed myself today at my cousin's housewarming today, so nice the house! : ) But the most important part is the fellowship and we as a famly sat down and chit chat and talked and laughed! : ) Thats the fun part about it.. Wanna do a photo Archive for my family so that whenever I invite them they can take a look! : )

Jewel

My first Snow Globe from US

I bought a 25th anniversary Precious Moments Snow Globe from US and it finally arrived!!! : )

Its beautiful, actually its relative inexpensive.. but the shipping cost is ... double the price...

Gosh... so beautiful...




So happy! Wanna go US to buy more!

Thursday, January 04, 2007

New Thoughts for Budgeting

Isaac got a PSP from Scratch and Win! haha!!! Thinking if i should buy from him, haha! but I think that I really do not need it, sigh and ya its true, my bro already got one already it will be extra cost for 2007. This year I wanna budget myself and that is my resolution! Amen! Will keep to that! Okie, guess he can get a better deal to sell it off on the net!! : (

Jewel

My re-construction plan Day One

Yesterday there was this box of mess here in my room.. Thank Goodness that its cleared now.. THanks to everyone! haha!



Today was a better day for the re-construction plan, cleared much more clutter in the store room as well as in the room. Need to find a place for everything and made a resolution not to buy anymore! Found so much more stuff toys and photographs.

1. Need to find how to keep stuff toys
2. Need to find if there is a scanner for photographs

This Saturday will be another full day for clearing, about clearing all the mess, need to re-design the house. Need to form a clipboard to find out about that.

3. Also need to budget for the photo negatives. Scan them into CDs.




Tuesday, January 02, 2007

The Bridge Club

Isaac suggested that we start forming hobby clubs, and someone mentioned Bridge club! haha! Cannot remember who is the one who suggested, great idea! Haha! We had an inauguration game last night and tonight was our first league! Whooo Hooo! And darling held the championship cup! Haha! And won a Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream! Kindly sponsored by Isaac! It was funny and I think it really bonds our teams together! Very happy that dar enjoyed himself, his enjoyment is really undescribable.. But its good, when he plays and when he works, he does both in the extremes!

Wanted to post the bridge club pictures here! Sigh! Its still with Charlotte! Should be quite cool! First runner up is Malcolm and then Juvena.. And Charlotte is the "Crow" 3rd runner up!

The funniest things that happened today was Malcolm's "2 no spade" haha! Seriously he is the winner of the "crow league"! Up to the point that when we were talking about marinating, he said "Oh you all finish renovating already?" WHere is the link???? hahah!!! Renovating = marinating.. hmmm...

Haha! Most wonderful part also is that JiaXin and Tham came today and we managed to celebrate Juvena, JiaXin and Alex's birthday! Glad that liked the books we bought them! I pray that it will bless them tremendously!!!

Oh and not I must remember that Thomson plaza's daily gifts Christian Shop is very good!!!! I actually found lots of precious moments things there that I am unable to find elsewhere! I also bought a little cross for me !!! Precious moments one..

Hah! Okie.. think I am getting sleepy.. need sleep!

Jewel

My first thoughts of the new year: 2007

There are a lot of resolutions I made this year, and I really wish to grow spiritually, to be able to help grow the cell and it was my prayer that our cell will double by the end of 2007 or even earlier. A motivation to put the best of my abilities into fulfilling my destiny that God has for me. Aunty Gwen reminded me at watch night service, that my prophecy one day is to travel and minister with a back pack and with my bibles. Perhaps, Pastor Rachel also prophesy that this year 2007 I will be going on A mission trip.. The first thought i had was if tis is one of the alternate years that GB is going over to Chiang Rai for Mission trip.. I need to pray about this..

I am unclear of where God wants me to be now, but apostle saw a vision of me standing in front of a propetrty with a clipboard, so up till now its still in Citibank.. May the Lord once more use me to achieve greater heights. That last year although i will notget sales champion, that this year I will in CitiBusiness.

2007 resolutions I have not yet had time to fully digest them, these 2 days have been fun and fun and fun,, not much work to be done.. Well the days of concentration on work has come back again.. Its time also I need to get my momentum going. And to start on my globe business as well.. Cannot wait for my globe to be delivered to me soon..

I need more passion in my life, and not to stagnate myself in what I am doing. I need to seek to improve myself, character, knnowledge and many more.

May 2007 be a great year of change.. May the Lord bless all that I am doing..

In Jesus name...

Amen..

Jewel Tan