So Adorable!!!!!!

My Crossing Over

To finally make that change in my IC particulars really is amazing. To have my daddy with me while I was making the change, makes it even more meaningful and I believed God made it happen. Without my daddy losing his wallet, I wouldn't need to be there to change my IC and I would have changed it without my dad's blessing if it was not on this date. Finally, I have crossed over to be fully born again with my new name Jewel.

To God be the Glory!





Amen!

Jewel

No-Bake Chocolate and Peanut Butter Oatmeal Bars

Wow, saw this in my email today from Martha Stewart's cookie recipe! Looks good! Feel like making it already!

Jewel

Lornie Cell; Unity in the body of Christ

Today God led me to read Ephesians 4; unity in the body of Christ. To share with the cell on the unity that we need to have to stand together to then use our calling to reach out to the people around us. I was quite surprised by myself as I shared with the cell, as I was amazed how God can use me to perhaps "rub off" that passion to others. I pray that today people can be encouraged and all together work towards making this a church for God.

Like what Eric shared to use the energy in my sphere of influence.

Thank you Lord.

Love,
Jewel

Passion New Photos & Cries

Played with the idea of having a Passion Notice Board, writing down all our testimonials for that day and setting goals and targets to work towards it! Need to get down to doing it today, have to prepare for cell later too though!



Yesterday night had another revelation; I felt my heart reaching out to God and I wish there could be someone guiding me and showing me where I should go from here?

After Leaders' Meeting, while we were on our way home, Eric shared with me simply, that 2 obvious gifts I had that I can use to serve God would be through music, my singing. He said, Jewel, no matter how many hard knocks you got, you still chose to stay in the worship team, do not deny it any longer, you should use this to serve God.

He placed a question to me, do I cry when I see alcoholics get saved and healed from their addiction or do i get inspired when i see prophets giving prophecies? Ashley's journal and the things i talk about are the evidence of my calling. I cry when i hear about lives being changed, i cry when there are amazing songs written for God, i cry when souls come to Heaven. I have a heart for outreach, for giving ideas on reaching out. I have a heart to sing for God.

I hardly thought of it this way, I kept thinking that perhaps I am not meant to sing for God, my voice is not good enough, I do not know how to play an instrument, why do i seem not to have the passion for singing, to learn more and etc. On the contrary, its due to the lack of confidence that aunty Gwen was talking about too. The that lack of confidence, will pull my enthusiasm down and that is what that is stopping me from wanting to improve myself any further.

What makes me cry? What makes me sing?

Eric just answered it for me, someone not entirely close to me knew. God works in miraculous ways.

Jewel

Passion sparked by The Passion Movement

I assume being passionate about Christ is really something I need to be very careful about too. That I must be dedicate everything to God and not let my enthusiasm take precedent over the what God's will for me is in this life.

To be able to seek God and then fully let Him take control, takes time and effort on the man's part.

I pray for wisdom and discernment.

Amen.

Love,
Jewel

Is that really you Lord?

Elysia shared with Jerome and I today about Lauren Cunningham (if that is how i spell his name correctly) that he once grew his ministry so big, that he saw a vision of God giving his a big ship to call his ministry own. To use that ship to send out so many youths and supplies that it will be a great milestone to his ministry. He had placed a deposit of US$72,000 and had press releases that they will be getting the ship, many investors have donated their money into the ministry for a greater call.

God showed him a verse that said for what will be shaken, will be shaken and all that is left behind would be the one that will stand forever. So he hesitated and wanted to seek God, to pray until God answers and confirms.

But then God showed him a vision of the boat getting ready to set sail and there was a man sitting beside the boat crying. That man was none other than Jesus Himself. He was crying for the ship that was supposed to be for Him, to do His works, the focus was on the ship, the ministry and not on Jesus Himself. If they had chosen the ship, they would have forsaken Jesus.

He then had to let the ship dream die. For only when he let that dream die, the man part dies, whether it was for a greater cause or not, if its not for God and God is not in it. Then what does it serve. In order for it to mean something, it had to die. And God had to resurrect it, for then it is God who did it. It is for His glory and no one else. Just like why did God let Lazarus die and then resurrect him? It was then will they treasure, and see that is for God.

He had to learn to be humble, he could have not let it go for pride issues since he had the money coming in. But he did not. He called one of his major donors and tried explaining. But the donor said, he considered his investment well spent, as this helped the ministry to be humbled. And since the decision was made, he believed that in further days to come, the ministry will grow even bigger and stronger.

I think it was amazing that God will let Jerome ask Elysia this question. And it is even more amazing that Elysia can answer how do we hear from God and know that it is really Him?

To be able to minister to people, we need to be equipped with stories to tell, with testimonies to share, with bible verses to refer to, with resources to give out.

And that is what I am aiming to become for God!

Yes LORD!

Amen

Jewel

Passion Kuala Lumpur 2008: Fun Times

Other than the spiritual experience, it was a great experience hanging out with the entire MM team! We had loads of fun and hilarious experiences! Wah ah! And I cannot imagine i actually drove in Malaysia! Yes! It was really quite scary at first, the cars being more "tougher" than in Singapore! However, I believed that God will keep us safe from harm! Malcolm gave me the "Guard of Horner" badge, cos for hours they drove up the highway and the roads, they did not use the horn, just minutes after we drove out of the Tabernacle of David Church, I horned a driver cos he was intending to cut into my lane while i was following isaac to go for lunch! Haha! it created quite a commotion in the car. Eric and Malcolm ah.. sigh.. cannot stop talking about it.

And so, I drove round KL and drove back from KL to JB, around JB and JB back to Singapore!

the most exhilarating experience was the petrol incident: sigh we left KL with 3/4 tank of petrol and on our way we took for granted that there definitely will be petrol stations along the R&R points. While i was at 1/4 tank, we started to signal to look out for petrol, no sign of it. At the sign of the empty tank warning, we still could not find any. Both R&R pit stops had no petrol stations. Went on empty tank for a REALLY long while, while everyone in the car were all awake and silent now. And all silently praying i guess. Haha!

And finally came to a toll, the person told us 5km away, and then another toll said, the petrol station will be 8km away off the highway. Wow... the experience could kill.

I had to switch the air-con off, and we sat there in our perspiration, as i just kept driving. Concentrating on cutting the lane to my right quickly and gently enough to not increase my RPM, and also not to lose sight of isaac and also to keep watch on petrol and look out for petrol stations. Haha! Super multi tasking of the season!

Finally, Eric broke off into a song: "Give me oil in the car, keep it running! Give me oil in the car, I pray, I pray. Give me oil in the car, keep it running, keep it running till we reach the petrol station" haha! It was super funny, we all sang along! Finally broke some tension!

And then we saw it, a little blue sign on the left side of the end of the highway... The petrol kiosk logo 1km away. We were happy like little birds and anticipated it! We were stuck behind this little lorry that exhumed black smoke from its exhaust pipe! And I thought to myself, lets overtake him before we consume too much black smoke! and well.. while i over taked on my right, the little sign came up again and there it wrote 1000m away...

BUT it was just round the corner, everyone got excited include MALCOLM and he started pointing and exclaiming for me to turn left!!!! And blocked my side mirror!!! oH man... I had to quickly swerve to the left and when we reached our petrol station, we PRAISED GOD! As if we just touched down from a near crashing plane ride!

It was an experience i cannot forget. Well, this Malcolm had to rub it in to say, all soldiers need to go through the test, before he can get the badges you know, it will not be fun if i so easily got the badge!!! : )

Isaac and Malcolm kept insisting then, that there should be no cause for alarm, and that my tank should have more reserve, so we took note of how much litres we pumped, and it wrote 40 litres. then isaac said, "aiya! like that still can go for more than 10km lor" assuming my tank is a 50 litre one...

So once we reached church, alex asked Jerome, how much is our tank size, and in his face, he said 40 litres.. WAH HAHA!

It was a miracle. We arrived at JB on 40 litres, barely making it at all..

Alex was dumbfounded and called Isaac! Hahah!

Well well... so much for their re-assurance!

Nonetheless, it was a great trip!!!!!

Jewel

Passion Kuala Lumpur 2008.

During the conference, I looked around at the thousands of people and wondered to myself, I am just one person here in this huge hall looking for an answer, looking for God to hear me, and reveal Himself to me, the rest of the thousands must be doing the same thing too, and they might have even greater passion, greater eagerness than me. How do I know, that God you hear me?

Then at the end of the conference, they had to do some extra songs, and Chris Tomlin sang Indescribable,

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

And I literally broke down, because in the midst of so many of His sons and daughters, He showed me that He hears me. Cos He knows even each of the stars by name.

Isaiah 40:26

Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

Eric sent me this verse in the morning cos i shared with them what happened, and I thought it will be great to be an encouraging verse to Christians and pre-Christians alike!

Amazing Testimonies at the conference, I really felt so much for making God's name known throughout the world. In the past, I use to think, i must be someone great so that many may come to know Jesus through me, but i realised in the conference. Louie said this, God may call people differently, some to be big, some to be small, some to be famous and some to not to be.

I want my life to make your name famous. Saying yes to jesus, and going wherever he is going. And to whatever questions. Isaiah 26.8

But we are all making disciples for God. The most amazing verse i learnt

Isaiah 26:8,

Yes, LORD, walking in the way of your laws, ^[a]
we wait for you;
your name and renown
are the desire of our hearts.

that all I need to do is to say "Yes, Lord" and let God do the rest.

Louis said that all we need to know is that we need to infiltrate culture, to be the best that you can be, to let God supernaturally help us and not only by our talents and gifts.

He spoke about Grace; 2 corinthians 5:13-21:

13If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.

16So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 18All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21God made him who had no sin to be sin^[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

I finally understood, what Grace was about, felt like for the first time, I knew God.

Many people think that we are sinners, and God is perfect, it is such a huge difference, so how do you get across the gap back to God.

A lot of people will say that we need to make right what we made wrong. Grace is spanning the gap to me. God will do what we cannot do. God came down and make it to you. Jesus faced what we faced, and he lived among the temptations and the desires, but he was faithful to God in every way. At the cross, God did a transaction that blew our mind, he put all our wrong onto His son that was perfect. Jesus gave his life as a payment, He paid the price for me. We get a brand new person in Christ when we have a relationship with Him.

The cross should make you go crazy and not just a calm resounding: "Amen brother". Sometimes you have got to be in the right time. In the world but not of the world. We can talk to anyone, we can be anybody. Put me anywhere, i got gifts talents, put me where people are.

Many songs touched my heart in Passion. Indescribable, "Sing, Sing, Sing", "God of this City"!

Its amazing, I am believing God for greater things!

Amen.

Jewel in this City.