MVs made by fans

I think its to be applauded, a lot of effort has been placed to do this.. And they know the show very well! haha!





Jewel

My Passion For Singing...

Lets compile a list of songs I will feel for to sing..

Haha! This is OST for It all started with a Kiss...









Jewel

It all started with a kiss 2

It all started with a Kiss

I spent the last 2 days watching this drama serial; it all started with a kiss! Haha! A little slow for me to only see it now, but it set me thinking of alot of things. Many things in life, we have to work for it, and God will give you opportunities but not give you the gift straight away. And all these people who have cool jobs, have worked for it. Even in one of the last few episodes when the Rich "Qian Jing" wanted to marry Zhi Shu, she herself stated that she wanted to "Bu Lao Er Huo" Basically to not work hard for anything, and yet still gain from it. Which turned out fruitless. I am 25 already this year. And there were so many dreams that I wanted to achieve, I believed that God meant for me to do greater things. But i feel stuck here in my life. I need to move on. I need to work hard for my dreams. And not take the easy way out.

But first. I need to clarify my dreams and my prayers to you Lord. Lord may you let me seek your will. What is it for me to do?

A Divine Intervention

I started to pour out my feelings before I started to read my quiet time chapter for tonight.. And the verse for tonight was:

Psalm 56

3 When I am afraid,
I will trust in you.

4 In God, whose word I praise,
in God I trust; I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?

I know its God's way of re-assuring me, I will not be afraid, I will walk and commit all plans to the Lord. And he will prosper me. Amen.

Thoughts and stuff

I never thought growing up will be so difficult... With many responsibilities and many decisions to make. I want to provide for my daddy and mummy that they might have a good life. But i feel tired chasing and chasing.. I feel tired of the money game. Sometimes i just feel that I dwell too much... and that i need to uproot and take some control in my hands. I need new renewed faith in my life and let not others dictate what i can or cannot do.

Lord, I need your divine intervention in this life of mine. Where i know that human are prone to error, lord help me to ne more like you. To love and to be loved in return. To save my parents, out of despair, loneliness, desperation and the rat race.

May your abundance be on us Lord.

Amen.

Thoughts and reflections

I just read through my blog, and realised that the day before i shared on not worrying. But yesterday, i received all my bills and I started to worry. Will we have enough money for the new office, will we have money to sustain the tenancy, will be be overstretching overselves.. Sometimes when we think that we have learnt something, we might not have. Mould these "ambassador of Christ" habits into our lives and we will become. I felt very lethargic today, still need to dress up formally and to go ahead to meet the client, but I guess habits need to be rebuilt.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Yesterday, I just told myself to remember to be humble, that wealth and riches can always bring one to a stage where they think its all themselves, that they are the ones that made it happen. I do not want to enter that stage. But I will trust in the Lord and know that all that we have is given by him, he is the God of Miracles. And today's verse in Titus 3:2 "to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."

I was sleeping that day and God woke me up with the song "I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned. I'm alive and well, your spirit lives within me, because you died and rose again." It just resounded clearly in my head that I wake up singing it. God is amazing, he never lets me down and is always there supporting me. Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Success is habit. And I have been moulded into my routinal habits for 24 years, its time to rebuild that habit, and perhaps in the last 8 months these habits have been magnified. To an extent where I need to relearn successful habits, of waking up earlier each day to work, and to accomplish more in my work. But also more importantly, I realised that coming over to Property is really more than what I expected, I have my own time to read the Bible, and digest what God is saying to me each day..

Today's word "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race. I have kept the faith" This is very encouraging to me. That the Lord wants me to fight a good fight, whether for the church, for my family and or for my Business, it requires a good fight. And that at the end of it all, i need to keep the faith, keep my faith strong. To stand upright in times like these, where money is the driving factor. Just earlier in the week, the verse taught was about the Love of Money, seek contentment. And not chase money to a point where we are wicked. God has blessed me abumdantly, kept to his promise, that one should not worry but instead put our trust in the Lord, for he has promised that he will take care of us, even the birds in the sky, he makes sure they have food to eat. And God has shown me his mercy in times of trials. I shall be at peace to do his work. Lord restore me to what you want me to be, to be the light that shines in this world, that I may really place aside all my burdens and what ifs to chase after you.

Even Apostle Paul said , in times of trials when everyone deserted him, only the Lord stood by him, and gave him strength.

Lord, I commit our plans to you, that if it be your will, the office space will be a blessing. As what we shared with Pastor Sally, and the office space might so well lead to greater miracles. I commit the finances into your hands, that you will bless these hands that will be placed into the plough, that through our commitment to the place, we can also bring light to the industry, and sow a seed into their lives.

Also Lord, take away my fear, my inadequacies, that we may be able to influence the world, and not let it influence us.

Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Very Happy today! Woke up early to do my daily bread! Today's reading is in 1 Timothy 5. The heading was: Advice about Widows, Elders and Slaves.

"Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers and youger women as sisters with absolute purity."

Brings me to a point that I realise, it does not matter how "older man" treat you and how they can be wrong. It matters when you do the same. Never treat a person harshly, for the spirit that follows the action might not be a good one, thus ruining a relationship with a fellow human being. Its going to be tough, but I guess the Bible is all about love. Let the evil ones be handled by God, why then should we bother our lives with these people? We still need to love and care as much as we can, but if advice falls on closed ears, then perhaps I should move on.

A women when married, are given the task of performing good deeds? Like bringing up the children, showing hospitality, helping those in trouble, and all kinds of good deeds. Its a no wonder isnt it? I always thought that I will never have the thoughts of these sort. This shows why most women like being hospitable, when we go to our friends' place, the mothers are always the ones being hospitable. While we always complain that women are kay poh, well its because they like to help those in trouble? Ah HA! A good understanding of the women race! hahaha!

I like this phrase, "Do not muzzle the ox while its treading out the grain, or the worker deserves his wages." Treat people who deserve it with respect right and do not restrain and punish these people.

"DO nothing out of favourtism." - Be fair in our judgment and show impartiality.

"do not share in the sins of others. keep yourself pure." - Its very difficult in this society today. And especially so when you enter into a world where money is the driving factor. Its sometimes a very thin grey line.. Which you need to tread slowly. I am glad this decision was made, not to be driven by money but by conscience.

At last but not least, I pray that Lord you will open my eyes in this world Lord. Show me and guide me. Provide me with the wisdom I need in this world today. That I will do good deeds as unto the Lord. That I shall seek knowledge and wisdom more than gold and silver, to seek a good name more than gold or silver.

Lord, open up my eyes, and take away my weariness for today lord. Guide me in this new life changing direction, I commit my plans to you today Lord. That I will make plans and only count on you to direct them.

I pray all this in Jesus name.

Amen!

Its going to be a great day! Great morning!!!!

Jewe

marina south steam boat!

it was a very hectic morning! Needed to do my work and also make sure i do the most productuve ones first! And then went to meet thia, we went shopping.. At first it was just watching her shop... Haha! Then after we rested for a drink, we continued and i bought 2 new pairs of shoes and a white bag! So happy cos one shoe is flat good for walking around and one is for work... We went to meet dede and ck came to pick us up! Haha ummm went through the round about twice lor! Hahaha! Anycase, we went over in his new honda accord euro r to marina south!

Jamified day as what ah thia put it, the traffic was bad.. well Friday night! Happening!!

We had a great time eating and laughing at how the GUYS' belts were expanding! From XL Sean CK to L Jerome and M for Thomass! Pity Mercy and Daniel couldnt join us!!

We ate crabs tat enjoyed their spa session and prawns that were alive! Jerome cooked one with a SLOW death by grilling him...

Drank lots of water and wanted to go into the bowling alley to take a neo print.. but.. its closed down.. guess its not too much in fashion nowsadays! But still we took lots and lots of pictures with the annoyance of all the rest! THomas nearly pulled his hair out! Wah haha! But THomas got his new car wat! NEw JAZZ so we went on a rampant exchanging of cars to test out! Haha! Smooth is the word for CK's car.. and THomass one is POWER! I like!

So then the guy went to carry on their car conversation, while i was busy taking photos, and the 2 went to the toilet and back.. without having any 20cents to pay for it, then left for the toilet again! Hahahah!

Overall it was fun... we met an integra clan, we thought wanted to "qie" them! BUt well, i think they scared la, run off first.. haha!

It was a FUN FUN FUN day!!! Crap sia,some of the things they joke about...

Tired from all that standing, didnt realise we test car, talk about car and stand there for 1 1/2 hours... gosh...

Next week, clementi "zi bao ji" said ck.. two positives.. YEAH RIGHT makes a negative aha hahah!

Jewel

Taking the harder path

I realised that life has been easy, these past 8 months. Resting, eating, sleeping, enjoying life. Though paradoxically, i am not enjoying it much. I aspire more than these. But I am only willing to put it lesser than it is. Thus, why then in the world will I be able to get the reaped harvest.

All along in life, I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of mediocrity, in fact I tell myself that i am above average. Actually I am mediocre, and perhaps lesser than mediocre. I expect less of myself. How then can i expect others to expect more of me. I think that my personality or character will shine more than my appearance. Like what Pastor Kong said, it is those that think they will normally be more eye catching like mary and martha, martha feels that she has done a lot for church, she is the outspoken one, with initiative and zest to scurry around and be busy. But she was in fact unlike mary, who sat at Jesus' feet and asked for more of him. I am Martha. Busy scurrying around trying to change church, change lives, when I myself am not hungry for the word of God, why then should anyone else that I am trying to influence be.

Martha, is too busy, too full of herself and her own capabilities. I need to step aside, and just be in the presence of the Lord. For once, just dwell and not think that I have contributed so much to church.

I have been excaping all this while. Escaping from the truth and the reality. I have been lazy and unconsistent. I need to change. Its time I learnt how to be a woman. There will not be any Fairy Godmother, who will appear and change me immediately into a Princess. Its not going to be as easy as it seems in the movies. People who made it in life, are all self taught, and self learnt. They aspire and dream, then they go about finding the way to do it. Make full use of their resources to do all that they are able to do.

I have decided that I will face up to my reality and work towards my dream, be disciplined and not be lazy. Be the one that God wlll be proud of.

I will make myself out to be the woman i want to become.

Lord, help me, to walk the path that I should walk, graciously and I will be able to fly higher than an eagle.. I will be able to soar for the Lord.

Amen

Jewel

Stressed

Feeling very stressed now.. Bills piling up.. and not sure if I am getting the job at IPB.. THink I really need a breakthrough. I will be able to make it through. Will pull through my refinancing deals, as well as get my IPB position, I am still young and will be able to make it through. Lord, please help me.

Jewel

Nancy Drew

Going to watch Nancy Drew later! So excited! haha! Reliving my childhood memories!



Feeling hungry now..

Gotta eat..

Jewel

Ratatouille

Just saw the trailer for the movie, suddenly filled with the urge of going to Paris. Must be a beautiful country... Longing for the day I can go there with Jerome, just being there enjoying what God has done in our lives.









Jewel

Habits of Life

I think its amazing how just by changing slightly your habits, by not giving in to my laziness, I can change a day just like that. I finished keying in the leads, and I didnt give in to my sleepiness! Its all about discipline! : )

Jia you!!!

JEwel

Decisions

"Its not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are." Roy Disney.

I read this same phrase or rather am seeking to understand this same idea while reading 7 Habits of Highly Effective people. What are the inner core values? MY personal mission statement in life. I can seek to make tonnes of money. And neglect whats most important, or seek to add value to what I can achieve and yet be comfortable. Or more than comfortable. Property and Banking. To make a choice seems so difficult but according to Roy Disney, its as easy as ABC. Thats when you know what your values are.

What are my values? When the author asked me to picture my Funeral, picture what my family, friends and colleagues would say about me, I pictured them remembering all the good times we spent together, having coffee, having fun, making sushi, cracking lame jokes, travelling together. I didnt picture them to remember me as someone chasing money. Or rather, I valued time more than money. I will strive hard of course, but looking at how Jerome works in Property, would I really want that? Or would I want my weekends to be peaceful..

There are people who are successful and owning properties while working.

Its not how much you earn, its how much you save and invest.

Its a long journey upwards, but I guess life will be like that.

Signed,
Jewel Tan

Leadership

Its true what Jerome said yesterday of me; I am lost, depressed. And most importantly tired out, thinking I do too much, thinking that I have sacrificed much. Looking back on the days that I have seeked to prove my worth in the bank. But the days are in the past and I have to learn what I need to learn from those lessons. Whether I am ready to accept the huge responsibility that God might have for me. The plans that God has in store for me. To be self employed or rather to go out on my own at a time like this to explore seems fearful. But God will always be there to hold my hand should I fall. The qualities of a leader I read from simpletruths.com gave me new light. The story of Kindness, and yet not expecting anything in return, tat is what I really call an act of kindness. So I see it that sacrifice without expecting anything, without recognition, or complaints is the truest form of rock solid leadership. I need to learn how to do advanced planning and to influence those that I need to influence.

2 weeks from now, I need to take cell. Lord, I pray that you will give me the strength and the ideas and the words you wish for me to share about. Lord, may you take over and let the influence that you wish to have be imparted.

I need strength and most importantly discipline as I step out. I cannot turn back and look and think that the world will stop for me. Only take what I can take. The discipline I had when I first joined Citi. The drive and determination. I will need to succeed to give my parents what they should deserve and before any illnesses or old age comes upon them, I would like them to enjoy life. Most importantly I wish to inspire Jerome and be the woman behind his success. That his family will be ready to accept Christ and most importantly for them to move to another level in life. I must do it. There is no one that will help me but myself. I will trust in the Lord and soar on Eagles wings. Let my life be a testimonial to others and may I be a great leader unto you Lord. I pray that you will give me the Long-term vision, and the strive for excellence in all that I do. That I will Plan, I will be disciplined. And my enthusiasm never be killed... It’s never by me alone... Lord let me take on this responsibility and t sacrifice without complaints, to have the humility in myself, to influence and change lives, and only those that I am able to change Lord. and the Perseverance to go on...

I need to be prepared, to let my siblings take on a new level in life, for my parents to be saved. To change myself for once and for all... to not accept mediocrity as a norm. But to take on my charge in this life. As William Penn said, I will only pass through this life once. I need to make the most out of it, for I will only have one chance. Once chance to be 25. Only once to pass through 5th June 2007.. once its gone, it’s gone forever.

I need to take charge of my life on my own, with God's help. I cannot wait and hide no more. Time waits for no man.

Isaac once said that I will be able to make the devil fear me for what I can do.. Jerome said many a times, that if I put my heart and soul into anything, I will be able to do it. Mr. Ong once said that he is sure I am capable to be successful, all my colleagues thinks I can make it. Dede always thinks I can do it if I set my heart to it. Nicole and Sean think so too. Even Aunty Gwen once said that Jewel, you will the light that shines bright for many to come to Christ. Even Cyn's mum thinks that of me.

Inside of me, I am the only one who thinks that I cannot. I am the only one who thinks tat I cant. I am the only one with the fear.

Lord let me be courageous in you and dare to dream and aspire to fly.

Let my life be glorified unto you.

Amen.

Jewel Tan

A gift from Regina

Today I was realy not feeling too good. And God is good, He sent Regina on her way! : ) haha! She was so sweet, she gave me a Red Beetle from her God ma, who drives a green beetle! It was a gift from her to her God ma, and now they gave it to me. It means alot to me. I will attain my dream one day. And it brighten up my day, its great to know that there are people around me that cares for me. She is a great lady!

Amen! Its my blessing to have known her, and may GOd bless her abundantly as well!

Amen!

Jewel

Compliments and Blessings from God

I want to start counting my blessing from today onwards!

It was a blessing, that my boss decided to pay me for the OD that I signed. Its amazing as i never expected it to come. God knows.

Its been a pleasure working with my 3 customers so far, the working relationship is different. I received a CNY card from one of my customers! It was great! Also, Ms Wong was very nice to even mention me to her RM to make sure that I can learn from him. Its a blessing!

Also for Mr Chang, to know him as a Christian, is a blessing, and also for him to compliment the service that i provided, made me felt that it was worth while.. God has a reason for everything. And may God bless my father in his business. I love my dad, and want to make sure that he succeeds.

Another testimonial is about my bro and his gf. He has decided to make a change in his life, he slept earlier than me today. Its amazing, she went to sleep too. I pray that this will last, and that God will do a miracle in my family.

God is great.

Amen