Nancy Drew

Going to watch Nancy Drew later! So excited! haha! Reliving my childhood memories!



Feeling hungry now..

Gotta eat..

Jewel

Ratatouille

Just saw the trailer for the movie, suddenly filled with the urge of going to Paris. Must be a beautiful country... Longing for the day I can go there with Jerome, just being there enjoying what God has done in our lives.









Jewel

Habits of Life

I think its amazing how just by changing slightly your habits, by not giving in to my laziness, I can change a day just like that. I finished keying in the leads, and I didnt give in to my sleepiness! Its all about discipline! : )

Jia you!!!

JEwel

Decisions

"Its not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are." Roy Disney.

I read this same phrase or rather am seeking to understand this same idea while reading 7 Habits of Highly Effective people. What are the inner core values? MY personal mission statement in life. I can seek to make tonnes of money. And neglect whats most important, or seek to add value to what I can achieve and yet be comfortable. Or more than comfortable. Property and Banking. To make a choice seems so difficult but according to Roy Disney, its as easy as ABC. Thats when you know what your values are.

What are my values? When the author asked me to picture my Funeral, picture what my family, friends and colleagues would say about me, I pictured them remembering all the good times we spent together, having coffee, having fun, making sushi, cracking lame jokes, travelling together. I didnt picture them to remember me as someone chasing money. Or rather, I valued time more than money. I will strive hard of course, but looking at how Jerome works in Property, would I really want that? Or would I want my weekends to be peaceful..

There are people who are successful and owning properties while working.

Its not how much you earn, its how much you save and invest.

Its a long journey upwards, but I guess life will be like that.

Signed,
Jewel Tan

Leadership

Its true what Jerome said yesterday of me; I am lost, depressed. And most importantly tired out, thinking I do too much, thinking that I have sacrificed much. Looking back on the days that I have seeked to prove my worth in the bank. But the days are in the past and I have to learn what I need to learn from those lessons. Whether I am ready to accept the huge responsibility that God might have for me. The plans that God has in store for me. To be self employed or rather to go out on my own at a time like this to explore seems fearful. But God will always be there to hold my hand should I fall. The qualities of a leader I read from simpletruths.com gave me new light. The story of Kindness, and yet not expecting anything in return, tat is what I really call an act of kindness. So I see it that sacrifice without expecting anything, without recognition, or complaints is the truest form of rock solid leadership. I need to learn how to do advanced planning and to influence those that I need to influence.

2 weeks from now, I need to take cell. Lord, I pray that you will give me the strength and the ideas and the words you wish for me to share about. Lord, may you take over and let the influence that you wish to have be imparted.

I need strength and most importantly discipline as I step out. I cannot turn back and look and think that the world will stop for me. Only take what I can take. The discipline I had when I first joined Citi. The drive and determination. I will need to succeed to give my parents what they should deserve and before any illnesses or old age comes upon them, I would like them to enjoy life. Most importantly I wish to inspire Jerome and be the woman behind his success. That his family will be ready to accept Christ and most importantly for them to move to another level in life. I must do it. There is no one that will help me but myself. I will trust in the Lord and soar on Eagles wings. Let my life be a testimonial to others and may I be a great leader unto you Lord. I pray that you will give me the Long-term vision, and the strive for excellence in all that I do. That I will Plan, I will be disciplined. And my enthusiasm never be killed... It’s never by me alone... Lord let me take on this responsibility and t sacrifice without complaints, to have the humility in myself, to influence and change lives, and only those that I am able to change Lord. and the Perseverance to go on...

I need to be prepared, to let my siblings take on a new level in life, for my parents to be saved. To change myself for once and for all... to not accept mediocrity as a norm. But to take on my charge in this life. As William Penn said, I will only pass through this life once. I need to make the most out of it, for I will only have one chance. Once chance to be 25. Only once to pass through 5th June 2007.. once its gone, it’s gone forever.

I need to take charge of my life on my own, with God's help. I cannot wait and hide no more. Time waits for no man.

Isaac once said that I will be able to make the devil fear me for what I can do.. Jerome said many a times, that if I put my heart and soul into anything, I will be able to do it. Mr. Ong once said that he is sure I am capable to be successful, all my colleagues thinks I can make it. Dede always thinks I can do it if I set my heart to it. Nicole and Sean think so too. Even Aunty Gwen once said that Jewel, you will the light that shines bright for many to come to Christ. Even Cyn's mum thinks that of me.

Inside of me, I am the only one who thinks that I cannot. I am the only one who thinks tat I cant. I am the only one with the fear.

Lord let me be courageous in you and dare to dream and aspire to fly.

Let my life be glorified unto you.

Amen.

Jewel Tan

A gift from Regina

Today I was realy not feeling too good. And God is good, He sent Regina on her way! : ) haha! She was so sweet, she gave me a Red Beetle from her God ma, who drives a green beetle! It was a gift from her to her God ma, and now they gave it to me. It means alot to me. I will attain my dream one day. And it brighten up my day, its great to know that there are people around me that cares for me. She is a great lady!

Amen! Its my blessing to have known her, and may GOd bless her abundantly as well!

Amen!

Jewel

Compliments and Blessings from God

I want to start counting my blessing from today onwards!

It was a blessing, that my boss decided to pay me for the OD that I signed. Its amazing as i never expected it to come. God knows.

Its been a pleasure working with my 3 customers so far, the working relationship is different. I received a CNY card from one of my customers! It was great! Also, Ms Wong was very nice to even mention me to her RM to make sure that I can learn from him. Its a blessing!

Also for Mr Chang, to know him as a Christian, is a blessing, and also for him to compliment the service that i provided, made me felt that it was worth while.. God has a reason for everything. And may God bless my father in his business. I love my dad, and want to make sure that he succeeds.

Another testimonial is about my bro and his gf. He has decided to make a change in his life, he slept earlier than me today. Its amazing, she went to sleep too. I pray that this will last, and that God will do a miracle in my family.

God is great.

Amen

Billionaire Dream

My latest aspiration: TO BE A BILLIONAIRE.

Heard from Marcus, that if one were to be a Billionaire, you would have to spend a million dollars every day for three years before finishing up your fortune. It inspired me. Inspired me because then I would be able to do so many things, help so many people. Even if I spend a million dollars buying properties everyday, the law of investments, I might end up making money instead. Haha! : p

Ching Koon said, one day if i were to appear on the newspapers as a Bilionaire, he would eat the papers up, Haha! I think there will be such a day. Amen. But only if God willing.

Amen.

Stirring up of the spirit

its been a tough time for me. Seemingly I should be more focused in my job and to be able to concentrate. But deep down within me, I am unhappy. I am happy with the friends that I have made with my colleagues. But I am unhappy about where I am, what my abilities are? What my talents are, where can they bring me? I shopped around today and found that I have dreams and ideas and wants and desires, but they all flew away in time. I need an re-organization and a decision to be focused. I need to trust God, for without that trust, I will not be able to find the ability to stay strong in my world today.

Jewel

Our Deep fried Spices Seafood Idea

wah, darling had this idea for deep fried food with different spices! And we all thought it was a great idea! We are going to work on it! Hee.. Oh and we had impromptu bbq! Fun!!!! It was nice!!! With the food just right, not too much and not too little and the weather was just right... chilly wind and warm bbq fire.. with nice food.. shoulddo this more often..

Hee..

Jewel

God's Miracle Blessings

Its been an amazing journey for this loan, I was confident of going to meet my customer. But God uses extreme situations to allow us to see that it can only be God and no one else, its not us! When you take care of God's business, he makes sure your business is taken care of. And he showed it to me today. He gave me the approval, and even before i asked for it. Thank you Jesus! So exciting! I need to also learn my lesson, that God has for me. Never to go to an appointment without making sure the customer is alright with the terms and conditions in it. Make sure you think for the customer and if u were in their shoes would you accept the loan?

Its all about empathy and also to be prepared in your field. How do you present a legal document without knowing what are the contents? And I need to learn my lesson, never to "smoke" my way out. I need to add value to myself and learn the terms. That is when I am a different sales person and I can get my pool of customers. Be disciplined now, and keep to my listing. Always update my agents leads, cold call leads, and hot leads. Start cold calling and getting new leads. May God bless me here and lead me to where he wants me to be.

Amen

Jewel

Doing Business

God always has a greater reason and sometimes we are so blinded by our present that we cannot see the future. I kept questioning God, why he placed me in this place, why SME banking? I trusted in myself, my own vision, my own strength. I did not trust that God will take care of my family burdens financially. But today i ahd some clue of why God place me there.

I met a customer today that blessed my heart, there was a conviction in my heart to strive and try harder for the customer although all the odds were against it. and also I knew that i might not be paid for it. But I just wanted very much to help. And to my pleasant surprise, he is a Christian, and he prayed... he prayed that God might help him to get the loan if it was meant to be.. God is amazing...it can only be Him at work...

He shared with me, the blessings and miracles of God.. how he blessed him.. He said, when he asked God for a thousand, God gave him a million. When he asked God for a million, God gave him millions, I pray now that no problem come over this loan, I declare it in Jesus name to cover it with the blood of the lamb, that this will be a testimony unto God! He made me see that God is there. He said one last thing: Fear God. It was exactly what I read in the Bible, Ecclesiastes that everything is meaning less but Fear God and enjoy what he gives us.

I learnt then not to be a quitter, not to listen to what others have to say but to trust in God and to give him the glory. I was very confident today to sign the loan, but then God taught me a lesson, to know that I need to be prepared and there are lots of things to learn to add value to myself.

Both my customers that i met today told me that in Business there are bound to be failures and people cheating them of money. Its a dark world out there... but God is the light... I think God wants me to be prepared, for what i do not know.. but its all in God's hands..

Amen

Grandma's Birthday

Today was ah ma's birthday, I had fun, it was great hanging out with my family and cousins.. I wanted to take lots of pictures with my family, so afraid that time will run out, suddenly a fear of losing people came over me, like whats the meaning of life then if it were meant to end. If time was to keep on going and never stop, people coming and going in life..Just like what King Solomon said in his writings, that everything is meaningless, but does that mean so.. he said to fear God, Really afraid of what will happen if I cannot manage to save everyone in my family, I need to do that, save everyone...

I love all of my family and friends, and I need to first share with the ones closest to me.. May God save them Lord, may you give them peace at heart.

Jewel

God answers prayers

I jus read thr my blog entry for yesterday... i wanted God to do a miracle for me cos i did not know how to bring the topic of God up.. and my grandma was the one who brought it up n say tt my aunty's uncle was on his death bed and they wnet to say their last words. and someone prayed for him and he was miraculously healed! Amen...

That is a testimonial by itself, that my grand ma will be saved!

Amen! I am inspired!

There is HOPE!

Jewel

Unrest in the spirit

May the God
of hope fill you
with all joy and
peace as you trust
in Him, so that you
may overflow with
hope by the power
of the Holy Spirit.


-- Romans 15:13

I am really feeling lots of unrest today... first was apostle in hospital, now its my grandmother..
and it might be stroke... understand the fear that everything is really like chasing the wind..
what can i control.. then i came across this verse.. when i first read it, didnt mean anything
to me.. but then i went back n read it again.. I really need all the joy and peace that God will give n i need
to place all my trust in him...

Amen...

Jewel Tan

Just not too good

Today when I woke up, I just cant go to work, my nose is killing me. Think its the overweariness...

Need rest....

So many things happening, the weather is terrible.. but i know one thing for sure, God is still on the throne.. Someone out there is getting married this weekend, someone's baby is about to be birthed! Someone just got a dream job, a pay increment, a new found relationship. Someone is planning to propose later in the evening...

There were times when i looked out and remembered that while I am here experiencing this now, someone is out there experiencing another thing. Today I really felt that I needed space.. first time in my life I felt that way..

Very tired to face a lot of things... Very sick to think..

Jewel Tan

Life is chasing after the wind

So many things have happened in the span of a week. Apostle is still in ICU, and my grandma is also in hospital. They say that her heart moved.. into the centre of her chest. Mummy said that her heart has all along been very weak. Very afraid, she is not saved yet, I do not know when to start how to say it and what to do. I need to have faith. It seems impossible. But all things are possible with God..

She seemed happy to see us today, felt so bad that I only arrived so late.. Really need to pray for her. Need strength to continue.. Feeling sick now, wanted to take MC tomolo, but I wish to work too.. Need the money, and also need to think how i should handle pasi's problem. Should he go ahead, will it be a curse... God, I need your help. I need you to work a miracle Lord.

You are the God of Miracles. Lord, I pray that you will show me a clear direction. I realise now that I was over-reliant on apostle, that he would always be there, guiding and giving me advice.. Its time to grow up...

Its time to hear from God and grow closer to him.. Yesterday was a sign that God gave me, He is so close to me.. he knows my troubles and what I am thinking. He knows the trouble that I am going through and he will keep me strong, my family strong, apostle strong.

I learnt never to take ou lives for granted, never to take our mobility and ability to speak for granted.. That we need to treasure all that we have..

I need to rest.. need to be able to think properly..

May God allow me to rest well and for tomorrow to be a great day!

Amen.

Jewel Tan

My Jie Jie's Housewarming

I enjoyed myself today at my cousin's housewarming today, so nice the house! : ) But the most important part is the fellowship and we as a famly sat down and chit chat and talked and laughed! : ) Thats the fun part about it.. Wanna do a photo Archive for my family so that whenever I invite them they can take a look! : )

Jewel

My first Snow Globe from US

I bought a 25th anniversary Precious Moments Snow Globe from US and it finally arrived!!! : )

Its beautiful, actually its relative inexpensive.. but the shipping cost is ... double the price...

Gosh... so beautiful...




So happy! Wanna go US to buy more!

New Thoughts for Budgeting

Isaac got a PSP from Scratch and Win! haha!!! Thinking if i should buy from him, haha! but I think that I really do not need it, sigh and ya its true, my bro already got one already it will be extra cost for 2007. This year I wanna budget myself and that is my resolution! Amen! Will keep to that! Okie, guess he can get a better deal to sell it off on the net!! : (

Jewel