Amazing Love...

I thought we had a great sharing at cell today. Even at the leaders meeting yesterday, i felt that I learned a lot. Like the "Squeeze a testimonial" from Pastor Sally. It amazes me how much one can take God for granted for the good things that he has given us. When asked to squeeze out a testimonial, everyone had a testimonial and it all blessed my heart. It was great! : ) And we celebrated Jennifer's birthday with a very special pumpkin yam cake! Wah aha!




Darling said to try to thank God every single night for something he did for us today. So I am thinking what can I thank God for today..

I thank God for good friends around me that truly care for me.

I thank God for my family!

I thank God I still have a roof over my head!

I thank God for my darling, what would I do without him?

I thank God that he changed my bedsheet for me cos it was causing an irritation to me for my nose, and re-arranged the donkeys nicely for me so that once i came out of the bath, I had a nice and comfortable bed to sleep in!





I thank God for Pastor Rachel who blessed my sister, jerome and me with chocolate muffins!

I thank God that darling bought me a new camera!!!

And many more..

God is good.. I want to pray hard Lord.

Guide me in your direction.

Amen!

The Cross Roads

I feel as if I have reached a certain crossroad in my life. A split between the envious earning of money, and the chasing of my dreams and passion. I get motivated by the fact that people are earning money, but on the other end it might all not be wat i like. I enjoy being with people, having lunch with my friends, without agendas, and just be who I am. God, this time I really need a sign from you. I really need to know which route am I to take that has your blessings. Close the doors that you do not want me to take.

God, please assist me to know what your place for me in this world is to be. Thank you.

Jewel

Lost dreams and soul

Been very lost recently. Cant seem to get anything going nor wanna sleep early. Yet in the wee hours of the morning, thats the time when you feel the worse. Just like what Pastor Frankie said; we are bounded by our past fears and failures that we cannot move on. We need to change and know that dreams are placed in us for a reason. Confidence in something that i must built in me. Procrastination is something i must get rid. Why am I not looking forward to life, and the future. Everything of me now seems to be stuck only now, this very moment and nothing further than that!

I need my inspiration and my soul back in order for me to chase my dreams. Do not be demoralized. For it will lead to a destruction of your dreams.


May God guide me and be with me on this tough journey that never seems to end. Or rather, its always the darkest before dawn.

Jewel

Organizing my life

Was getting quite excited about the new additions and the new changes in my life. Taking up singing as my passion is something that i have always dreamed of but never ever started. How much of it will be a start of something new I am not sure. But its very rare that I am having that much desire for it. Its always been there but never something that is so real and so strong.

Of course the pressures are even higher.

Need lots of preparation and time scheduling.

God help me in this journey.

Amen

Success...

"From a Banker to a Baker..." these were the words that caught my eye from the magazine: Vanilla.

Almost immediately i took it off the shelf and without perusal went ahead to make payment. At this moment in time, these words are crucial to me. I am contemplating, what is success? What is my passion? Are there any out there who thinks like me? We all strive for a future which we thought; we had it all planned.

We came through the system, fought through our education system. Found a good job that pays well, and struggled through the days and in no time realise that commitments have gotten more, and seemingly we seem to have no other time for our passions...

But till the day our tolerance level reaches its max.. We are at our crossroads.

I came to mine. And the most inspiring thing that happened to me is to find this magazine. There were so many ladies that have went through the same stage as me. And have courageously stepped out in Faith..

In this age, to be able to step out of our comfy careers and get started on our passion is really remarkable. Many a times, I contemplated to give up my dream. To give up my dreams to the realism of financial pressure. But i think our creator above never wishes for us to give up.

I really would encourage many to read the magazine.. Its different truly.

Its real women issues.

Even today in church, Pastor Frankie shared about Success.. or rather it was actually on THOUGHTS.

I am sitting in my room now, thoughts are already encompassing my mind. With the music in the background.. "All that I am, all that I do.. U.R.Y" Beautiful...

Just as I was about to complain about all that I am doing, God sends the sermon message across to me beautifully. Can I do it as unto the Lord?

"You are why I sing, you are why i love?"

I feel happy doing Hungrrry, being able to serve and in future try my baking.

I wanted to complain why is it only me that takes it seriously but i think, i cannot force people to take it as seriously as me. I can only inspire people. And to be a leader, i need to be a servant.

So apt, "Be transformed by the renewal of the mind" was the first words I hear from Pastor Frankie,

We have great potential to do great things for God. All we need to do is to capture our thoughts. God has assigned us and anointed us for greater things.

But what are this great things:

It can be as small as helping the old lady collect cans for a living. Or as big as Mother Theresa helping the poor in the world.

All these are great things, it just depends on the angle and the perspective we look at things.

Not everyone is called to be a Superstar, or a great politician, or a great docter. But everyone is called to do something great in one's life.

I want to pray for a Paradigm shift in my thinking.

"Reprocess your thinking process; put on the mind of Christ."

Pressing toward the Goal

Philippians 3

12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,[d] but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

God showed me this verse, just as I was feeling burnt out, just as I was afraid and just had a little argument with Jerome.

He is afraid as well, of the life ahead. And I do not want to hold him back from his success. I will be the reason and the motivation for his success.

And as God calls us to press on, we will press on in life and achieve his purpose for us.

Amen.

MVs made by fans

I think its to be applauded, a lot of effort has been placed to do this.. And they know the show very well! haha!





Jewel

My Passion For Singing...

Lets compile a list of songs I will feel for to sing..

Haha! This is OST for It all started with a Kiss...









Jewel

It all started with a kiss 2

It all started with a Kiss

I spent the last 2 days watching this drama serial; it all started with a kiss! Haha! A little slow for me to only see it now, but it set me thinking of alot of things. Many things in life, we have to work for it, and God will give you opportunities but not give you the gift straight away. And all these people who have cool jobs, have worked for it. Even in one of the last few episodes when the Rich "Qian Jing" wanted to marry Zhi Shu, she herself stated that she wanted to "Bu Lao Er Huo" Basically to not work hard for anything, and yet still gain from it. Which turned out fruitless. I am 25 already this year. And there were so many dreams that I wanted to achieve, I believed that God meant for me to do greater things. But i feel stuck here in my life. I need to move on. I need to work hard for my dreams. And not take the easy way out.

But first. I need to clarify my dreams and my prayers to you Lord. Lord may you let me seek your will. What is it for me to do?

A Divine Intervention

I started to pour out my feelings before I started to read my quiet time chapter for tonight.. And the verse for tonight was:

Psalm 56

3 When I am afraid,
I will trust in you.

4 In God, whose word I praise,
in God I trust; I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?

I know its God's way of re-assuring me, I will not be afraid, I will walk and commit all plans to the Lord. And he will prosper me. Amen.

Thoughts and stuff

I never thought growing up will be so difficult... With many responsibilities and many decisions to make. I want to provide for my daddy and mummy that they might have a good life. But i feel tired chasing and chasing.. I feel tired of the money game. Sometimes i just feel that I dwell too much... and that i need to uproot and take some control in my hands. I need new renewed faith in my life and let not others dictate what i can or cannot do.

Lord, I need your divine intervention in this life of mine. Where i know that human are prone to error, lord help me to ne more like you. To love and to be loved in return. To save my parents, out of despair, loneliness, desperation and the rat race.

May your abundance be on us Lord.

Amen.

Thoughts and reflections

I just read through my blog, and realised that the day before i shared on not worrying. But yesterday, i received all my bills and I started to worry. Will we have enough money for the new office, will we have money to sustain the tenancy, will be be overstretching overselves.. Sometimes when we think that we have learnt something, we might not have. Mould these "ambassador of Christ" habits into our lives and we will become. I felt very lethargic today, still need to dress up formally and to go ahead to meet the client, but I guess habits need to be rebuilt.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Yesterday, I just told myself to remember to be humble, that wealth and riches can always bring one to a stage where they think its all themselves, that they are the ones that made it happen. I do not want to enter that stage. But I will trust in the Lord and know that all that we have is given by him, he is the God of Miracles. And today's verse in Titus 3:2 "to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."

I was sleeping that day and God woke me up with the song "I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned. I'm alive and well, your spirit lives within me, because you died and rose again." It just resounded clearly in my head that I wake up singing it. God is amazing, he never lets me down and is always there supporting me. Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Success is habit. And I have been moulded into my routinal habits for 24 years, its time to rebuild that habit, and perhaps in the last 8 months these habits have been magnified. To an extent where I need to relearn successful habits, of waking up earlier each day to work, and to accomplish more in my work. But also more importantly, I realised that coming over to Property is really more than what I expected, I have my own time to read the Bible, and digest what God is saying to me each day..

Today's word "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race. I have kept the faith" This is very encouraging to me. That the Lord wants me to fight a good fight, whether for the church, for my family and or for my Business, it requires a good fight. And that at the end of it all, i need to keep the faith, keep my faith strong. To stand upright in times like these, where money is the driving factor. Just earlier in the week, the verse taught was about the Love of Money, seek contentment. And not chase money to a point where we are wicked. God has blessed me abumdantly, kept to his promise, that one should not worry but instead put our trust in the Lord, for he has promised that he will take care of us, even the birds in the sky, he makes sure they have food to eat. And God has shown me his mercy in times of trials. I shall be at peace to do his work. Lord restore me to what you want me to be, to be the light that shines in this world, that I may really place aside all my burdens and what ifs to chase after you.

Even Apostle Paul said , in times of trials when everyone deserted him, only the Lord stood by him, and gave him strength.

Lord, I commit our plans to you, that if it be your will, the office space will be a blessing. As what we shared with Pastor Sally, and the office space might so well lead to greater miracles. I commit the finances into your hands, that you will bless these hands that will be placed into the plough, that through our commitment to the place, we can also bring light to the industry, and sow a seed into their lives.

Also Lord, take away my fear, my inadequacies, that we may be able to influence the world, and not let it influence us.

Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

Very Happy today! Woke up early to do my daily bread! Today's reading is in 1 Timothy 5. The heading was: Advice about Widows, Elders and Slaves.

"Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers and youger women as sisters with absolute purity."

Brings me to a point that I realise, it does not matter how "older man" treat you and how they can be wrong. It matters when you do the same. Never treat a person harshly, for the spirit that follows the action might not be a good one, thus ruining a relationship with a fellow human being. Its going to be tough, but I guess the Bible is all about love. Let the evil ones be handled by God, why then should we bother our lives with these people? We still need to love and care as much as we can, but if advice falls on closed ears, then perhaps I should move on.

A women when married, are given the task of performing good deeds? Like bringing up the children, showing hospitality, helping those in trouble, and all kinds of good deeds. Its a no wonder isnt it? I always thought that I will never have the thoughts of these sort. This shows why most women like being hospitable, when we go to our friends' place, the mothers are always the ones being hospitable. While we always complain that women are kay poh, well its because they like to help those in trouble? Ah HA! A good understanding of the women race! hahaha!

I like this phrase, "Do not muzzle the ox while its treading out the grain, or the worker deserves his wages." Treat people who deserve it with respect right and do not restrain and punish these people.

"DO nothing out of favourtism." - Be fair in our judgment and show impartiality.

"do not share in the sins of others. keep yourself pure." - Its very difficult in this society today. And especially so when you enter into a world where money is the driving factor. Its sometimes a very thin grey line.. Which you need to tread slowly. I am glad this decision was made, not to be driven by money but by conscience.

At last but not least, I pray that Lord you will open my eyes in this world Lord. Show me and guide me. Provide me with the wisdom I need in this world today. That I will do good deeds as unto the Lord. That I shall seek knowledge and wisdom more than gold and silver, to seek a good name more than gold or silver.

Lord, open up my eyes, and take away my weariness for today lord. Guide me in this new life changing direction, I commit my plans to you today Lord. That I will make plans and only count on you to direct them.

I pray all this in Jesus name.

Amen!

Its going to be a great day! Great morning!!!!

Jewe

marina south steam boat!

it was a very hectic morning! Needed to do my work and also make sure i do the most productuve ones first! And then went to meet thia, we went shopping.. At first it was just watching her shop... Haha! Then after we rested for a drink, we continued and i bought 2 new pairs of shoes and a white bag! So happy cos one shoe is flat good for walking around and one is for work... We went to meet dede and ck came to pick us up! Haha ummm went through the round about twice lor! Hahaha! Anycase, we went over in his new honda accord euro r to marina south!

Jamified day as what ah thia put it, the traffic was bad.. well Friday night! Happening!!

We had a great time eating and laughing at how the GUYS' belts were expanding! From XL Sean CK to L Jerome and M for Thomass! Pity Mercy and Daniel couldnt join us!!

We ate crabs tat enjoyed their spa session and prawns that were alive! Jerome cooked one with a SLOW death by grilling him...

Drank lots of water and wanted to go into the bowling alley to take a neo print.. but.. its closed down.. guess its not too much in fashion nowsadays! But still we took lots and lots of pictures with the annoyance of all the rest! THomas nearly pulled his hair out! Wah haha! But THomas got his new car wat! NEw JAZZ so we went on a rampant exchanging of cars to test out! Haha! Smooth is the word for CK's car.. and THomass one is POWER! I like!

So then the guy went to carry on their car conversation, while i was busy taking photos, and the 2 went to the toilet and back.. without having any 20cents to pay for it, then left for the toilet again! Hahahah!

Overall it was fun... we met an integra clan, we thought wanted to "qie" them! BUt well, i think they scared la, run off first.. haha!

It was a FUN FUN FUN day!!! Crap sia,some of the things they joke about...

Tired from all that standing, didnt realise we test car, talk about car and stand there for 1 1/2 hours... gosh...

Next week, clementi "zi bao ji" said ck.. two positives.. YEAH RIGHT makes a negative aha hahah!

Jewel

Taking the harder path

I realised that life has been easy, these past 8 months. Resting, eating, sleeping, enjoying life. Though paradoxically, i am not enjoying it much. I aspire more than these. But I am only willing to put it lesser than it is. Thus, why then in the world will I be able to get the reaped harvest.

All along in life, I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of mediocrity, in fact I tell myself that i am above average. Actually I am mediocre, and perhaps lesser than mediocre. I expect less of myself. How then can i expect others to expect more of me. I think that my personality or character will shine more than my appearance. Like what Pastor Kong said, it is those that think they will normally be more eye catching like mary and martha, martha feels that she has done a lot for church, she is the outspoken one, with initiative and zest to scurry around and be busy. But she was in fact unlike mary, who sat at Jesus' feet and asked for more of him. I am Martha. Busy scurrying around trying to change church, change lives, when I myself am not hungry for the word of God, why then should anyone else that I am trying to influence be.

Martha, is too busy, too full of herself and her own capabilities. I need to step aside, and just be in the presence of the Lord. For once, just dwell and not think that I have contributed so much to church.

I have been excaping all this while. Escaping from the truth and the reality. I have been lazy and unconsistent. I need to change. Its time I learnt how to be a woman. There will not be any Fairy Godmother, who will appear and change me immediately into a Princess. Its not going to be as easy as it seems in the movies. People who made it in life, are all self taught, and self learnt. They aspire and dream, then they go about finding the way to do it. Make full use of their resources to do all that they are able to do.

I have decided that I will face up to my reality and work towards my dream, be disciplined and not be lazy. Be the one that God wlll be proud of.

I will make myself out to be the woman i want to become.

Lord, help me, to walk the path that I should walk, graciously and I will be able to fly higher than an eagle.. I will be able to soar for the Lord.

Amen

Jewel

Stressed

Feeling very stressed now.. Bills piling up.. and not sure if I am getting the job at IPB.. THink I really need a breakthrough. I will be able to make it through. Will pull through my refinancing deals, as well as get my IPB position, I am still young and will be able to make it through. Lord, please help me.

Jewel

Nancy Drew

Going to watch Nancy Drew later! So excited! haha! Reliving my childhood memories!



Feeling hungry now..

Gotta eat..

Jewel

Ratatouille

Just saw the trailer for the movie, suddenly filled with the urge of going to Paris. Must be a beautiful country... Longing for the day I can go there with Jerome, just being there enjoying what God has done in our lives.









Jewel