Day 32: Using what God gave you

To have a life retreat over the weekend, for God has a plan for me in everything we do..

Today is thursday and as He planned, tomorrow will be the start of the weekend, a life review.. I really am looking forward to it but yet a little weary.. To look back at my life's events and understand the lesson that God has planned for me..


I started a little today, i looked back at how me and jerome came together, and i realised how he placed so much effort for me, through him i understood the real meaning of love.. And through him i saw how much sacrifices one can make for the sake of love. . I remembered how he jus wanted to be there for me and never expected anything more..


Honestly, he is not the type the guy that i ever wanted in my life, whether or not, God plans for us to be together forever, i know that God made a plan for me. I hated tz to the core, it still hurts to know, but without him, i would not have been with jerome now.. My hurt was for me to learn that love does not have to be with one that is seemingly ideal.. love does not have to sound sweet and look handsome, for if one truly has a good heart, it will shine...


I guess i have to face the fact that i did learn a lot from astral mag, this name i have been avoiding, and hoping that noone asks me anything about it.. like wat veron usse to say, afraid of letting the past catch up with me..


But God planned it, and perhaps for me to learn humility there, for me to understand the dynamics of leadership and the fundamentals of recognizing faults in an organization..


Accessing my gifts and abilities, i have once asked madelene, what she think is my ability.. i thinki remember she said, that i am a people person??


I think i should take this opportunity to really think through waht kind of person i am..


Getting feedback from people who knows me best..


Jerome, my mummy, my sister, mercy, ade, Cyn, Veron, madelene, .... who else??


What am i doing that i will lose track of time? Singing... when i am chattin, when i am focusing on my biz? Goodness, i really think that i do not really know myself very well... i will use this weekend to focus on my life review..


I did a presentation today and i realized that many people have said that i am someone who can come up with theories.. as in, to be able to snook myself out of situations? I think i am more of a presentation person, more extroverted, and with more preparation and effort, i think i am more of a presentation person?


We are to cultivate our gifts and abilities, keep our heart aflame, broaden our experiences, grow our character and personality...


Oh today someone commented that i am very organized??? Hmm.. something i never thought of
of myself??


Study feedback and practice..


What can i do to give God the best?


I really am quite lost on this topic... God tell me, and give me the confidence in the talents that you give me...


OH! wrote a song ... finally a Christian one... will complete it and write it here... or maybe add the song here...


Amen....