Je t'aime

So Adorable!!!!!!

2008-08-10T19:07:00.000+08:00

My Crossing Over

2008-08-09T12:26:00.003+08:00

To finally make that change in my IC particulars really is amazing. To have my daddy with me while I was making the change, makes it even more meaningful and I believed God made it happen. Without my daddy losing his wallet, I wouldn't need to be there to change my IC and I would have changed it without my dad's blessing if it was not on this date. Finally, I have crossed over to be fully born again with my new name Jewel.

To God be the Glory!

Amen!

Jewel

No-Bake Chocolate and Peanut Butter Oatmeal Bars

2008-08-08T00:02:00.001+08:00

Wow, saw this in my email today from Martha Stewart's cookie recipe! Looks good! Feel like making it already!

Jewel

Lornie Cell; Unity in the body of Christ

2008-08-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today God led me to read Ephesians 4; unity in the body of Christ. To share with the cell on the unity that we need to have to stand together to then use our calling to reach out to the people around us. I was quite surprised by myself as I shared with the cell, as I was amazed how God can use me to perhaps "rub off" that passion to others. I pray that today people can be encouraged and all together work towards making this a church for God.

Like what Eric shared to use the energy in my sphere of influence.

Thank you Lord.

Love,
Jewel

Passion New Photos & Cries

2008-08-07T10:34:00.004+08:00

Played with the idea of having a Passion Notice Board, writing down all our testimonials for that day and setting goals and targets to work towards it! Need to get down to doing it today, have to prepare for cell later too though!

Yesterday night had another revelation; I felt my heart reaching out to God and I wish there could be someone guiding me and showing me where I should go from here?

After Leaders' Meeting, while we were on our way home, Eric shared with me simply, that 2 obvious gifts I had that I can use to serve God would be through music, my singing. He said, Jewel, no matter how many hard knocks you got, you still chose to stay in the worship team, do not deny it any longer, you should use this to serve God.

He placed a question to me, do I cry when I see alcoholics get saved and healed from their addiction or do i get inspired when i see prophets giving prophecies? Ashley's journal and the things i talk about are the evidence of my calling. I cry when i hear about lives being changed, i cry when there are amazing songs written for God, i cry when souls come to Heaven. I have a heart for outreach, for giving ideas on reaching out. I have a heart to sing for God.

I hardly thought of it this way, I kept thinking that perhaps I am not meant to sing for God, my voice is not good enough, I do not know how to play an instrument, why do i seem not to have the passion for singing, to learn more and etc. On the contrary, its due to the lack of confidence that aunty Gwen was talking about too. The that lack of confidence, will pull my enthusiasm down and that is what that is stopping me from wanting to improve myself any further.

What makes me cry? What makes me sing?

Eric just answered it for me, someone not entirely close to me knew. God works in miraculous ways.

Jewel

Passion sparked by The Passion Movement

2008-08-06T16:51:00.002+08:00

I assume being passionate about Christ is really something I need to be very careful about too. That I must be dedicate everything to God and not let my enthusiasm take precedent over the what God's will for me is in this life.

To be able to seek God and then fully let Him take control, takes time and effort on the man's part.

I pray for wisdom and discernment.

Amen.

Love,
Jewel

Is that really you Lord?

2008-08-06T00:59:00.001+08:00

Elysia shared with Jerome and I today about Lauren Cunningham (if that is how i spell his name correctly) that he once grew his ministry so big, that he saw a vision of God giving his a big ship to call his ministry own. To use that ship to send out so many youths and supplies that it will be a great milestone to his ministry. He had placed a deposit of US$72,000 and had press releases that they will be getting the ship, many investors have donated their money into the ministry for a greater call.

God showed him a verse that said for what will be shaken, will be shaken and all that is left behind would be the one that will stand forever. So he hesitated and wanted to seek God, to pray until God answers and confirms.

But then God showed him a vision of the boat getting ready to set sail and there was a man sitting beside the boat crying. That man was none other than Jesus Himself. He was crying for the ship that was supposed to be for Him, to do His works, the focus was on the ship, the ministry and not on Jesus Himself. If they had chosen the ship, they would have forsaken Jesus.

He then had to let the ship dream die. For only when he let that dream die, the man part dies, whether it was for a greater cause or not, if its not for God and God is not in it. Then what does it serve. In order for it to mean something, it had to die. And God had to resurrect it, for then it is God who did it. It is for His glory and no one else. Just like why did God let Lazarus die and then resurrect him? It was then will they treasure, and see that is for God.

He had to learn to be humble, he could have not let it go for pride issues since he had the money coming in. But he did not. He called one of his major donors and tried explaining. But the donor said, he considered his investment well spent, as this helped the ministry to be humbled. And since the decision was made, he believed that in further days to come, the ministry will grow even bigger and stronger.

I think it was amazing that God will let Jerome ask Elysia this question. And it is even more amazing that Elysia can answer how do we hear from God and know that it is really Him?

To be able to minister to people, we need to be equipped with stories to tell, with testimonies to share, with bible verses to refer to, with resources to give out.

And that is what I am aiming to become for God!

Yes LORD!

Amen

Jewel

Passion Kuala Lumpur 2008: Fun Times

2008-08-06T00:42:00.006+08:00

Other than the spiritual experience, it was a great experience hanging out with the entire MM team! We had loads of fun and hilarious experiences! Wah ah! And I cannot imagine i actually drove in Malaysia! Yes! It was really quite scary at first, the cars being more "tougher" than in Singapore! However, I believed that God will keep us safe from harm! Malcolm gave me the "Guard of Horner" badge, cos for hours they drove up the highway and the roads, they did not use the horn, just minutes after we drove out of the Tabernacle of David Church, I horned a driver cos he was intending to cut into my lane while i was following isaac to go for lunch! Haha! it created quite a commotion in the car. Eric and Malcolm ah.. sigh.. cannot stop talking about it.

And so, I drove round KL and drove back from KL to JB, around JB and JB back to Singapore!

the most exhilarating experience was the petrol incident: sigh we left KL with 3/4 tank of petrol and on our way we took for granted that there definitely will be petrol stations along the R&R points. While i was at 1/4 tank, we started to signal to look out for petrol, no sign of it. At the sign of the empty tank warning, we still could not find any. Both R&R pit stops had no petrol stations. Went on empty tank for a REALLY long while, while everyone in the car were all awake and silent now. And all silently praying i guess. Haha!

And finally came to a toll, the person told us 5km away, and then another toll said, the petrol station will be 8km away off the highway. Wow... the experience could kill.

I had to switch the air-con off, and we sat there in our perspiration, as i just kept driving. Concentrating on cutting the lane to my right quickly and gently enough to not increase my RPM, and also not to lose sight of isaac and also to keep watch on petrol and look out for petrol stations. Haha! Super multi tasking of the season!

Finally, Eric broke off into a song: "Give me oil in the car, keep it running! Give me oil in the car, I pray, I pray. Give me oil in the car, keep it running, keep it running till we reach the petrol station" haha! It was super funny, we all sang along! Finally broke some tension!

And then we saw it, a little blue sign on the left side of the end of the highway... The petrol kiosk logo 1km away. We were happy like little birds and anticipated it! We were stuck behind this little lorry that exhumed black smoke from its exhaust pipe! And I thought to myself, lets overtake him before we consume too much black smoke! and well.. while i over taked on my right, the little sign came up again and there it wrote 1000m away...

BUT it was just round the corner, everyone got excited include MALCOLM and he started pointing and exclaiming for me to turn left!!!! And blocked my side mirror!!! oH man... I had to quickly swerve to the left and when we reached our petrol station, we PRAISED GOD! As if we just touched down from a near crashing plane ride!

It was an experience i cannot forget. Well, this Malcolm had to rub it in to say, all soldiers need to go through the test, before he can get the badges you know, it will not be fun if i so easily got the badge!!! : )

Isaac and Malcolm kept insisting then, that there should be no cause for alarm, and that my tank should have more reserve, so we took note of how much litres we pumped, and it wrote 40 litres. then isaac said, "aiya! like that still can go for more than 10km lor" assuming my tank is a 50 litre one...

So once we reached church, alex asked Jerome, how much is our tank size, and in his face, he said 40 litres.. WAH HAHA!

It was a miracle. We arrived at JB on 40 litres, barely making it at all..

Alex was dumbfounded and called Isaac! Hahah!

Well well... so much for their re-assurance!

Nonetheless, it was a great trip!!!!!

Jewel

Passion Kuala Lumpur 2008.

2008-08-05T23:40:00.003+08:00

During the conference, I looked around at the thousands of people and wondered to myself, I am just one person here in this huge hall looking for an answer, looking for God to hear me, and reveal Himself to me, the rest of the thousands must be doing the same thing too, and they might have even greater passion, greater eagerness than me. How do I know, that God you hear me?

Then at the end of the conference, they had to do some extra songs, and Chris Tomlin sang Indescribable,

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

And I literally broke down, because in the midst of so many of His sons and daughters, He showed me that He hears me. Cos He knows even each of the stars by name.

Isaiah 40:26

Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

Eric sent me this verse in the morning cos i shared with them what happened, and I thought it will be great to be an encouraging verse to Christians and pre-Christians alike!

Amazing Testimonies at the conference, I really felt so much for making God's name known throughout the world. In the past, I use to think, i must be someone great so that many may come to know Jesus through me, but i realised in the conference. Louie said this, God may call people differently, some to be big, some to be small, some to be famous and some to not to be.

I want my life to make your name famous. Saying yes to jesus, and going wherever he is going. And to whatever questions. Isaiah 26.8

But we are all making disciples for God. The most amazing verse i learnt

Isaiah 26:8,

Yes, LORD, walking in the way of your laws, ^[a]
we wait for you;
your name and renown
are the desire of our hearts.

that all I need to do is to say "Yes, Lord" and let God do the rest.

Louis said that all we need to know is that we need to infiltrate culture, to be the best that you can be, to let God supernaturally help us and not only by our talents and gifts.

He spoke about Grace; 2 corinthians 5:13-21:

13If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.

16So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 18All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21God made him who had no sin to be sin^[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

I finally understood, what Grace was about, felt like for the first time, I knew God.

Many people think that we are sinners, and God is perfect, it is such a huge difference, so how do you get across the gap back to God.

A lot of people will say that we need to make right what we made wrong. Grace is spanning the gap to me. God will do what we cannot do. God came down and make it to you. Jesus faced what we faced, and he lived among the temptations and the desires, but he was faithful to God in every way. At the cross, God did a transaction that blew our mind, he put all our wrong onto His son that was perfect. Jesus gave his life as a payment, He paid the price for me. We get a brand new person in Christ when we have a relationship with Him.

The cross should make you go crazy and not just a calm resounding: "Amen brother". Sometimes you have got to be in the right time. In the world but not of the world. We can talk to anyone, we can be anybody. Put me anywhere, i got gifts talents, put me where people are.

Many songs touched my heart in Passion. Indescribable, "Sing, Sing, Sing", "God of this City"!

Its amazing, I am believing God for greater things!

Amen.

Jewel in this City.

Dollar Store Swap ~ Wrapped

2008-07-30T13:25:00.001+08:00

Dollar Store Swap ~ Wrapped, originally uploaded by The Felt Mouse.

Wow! I like this photo!!! So pretty!!!

Hello Kitty Cafe Taipei Taiwan Interior

2008-07-30T13:20:00.001+08:00

Hello Kitty Cafe Taipei Taiwan Interior, originally uploaded by supercamel.

Oh man!!! Found this while we were browsing for interior designs for our shop!!!! : ) i wanna go!!!

Jewel

Updates to My First China Expedition

2008-07-28T00:44:00.008+08:00

It was an amazing trip, escaped from Typhoon and an earthquake. Realised how much home is
the best. Still had some fun with ong though! Haha! These are some of the food we had!

26th June: Dinner @ Quanzhou

This was at the restaurant one of the factories brought us to, great food! ! Quanzhou

27th June: Lunch @ Xiamen

Forgot the name of this place, but its right beside our Xiamen hotel, we ate here before we left for the airport to travel to Yiwu, and its delicious! The mango ice was so huge, we couldnt finish it! Think that Jerome would love to finish it, but too bad he was not around!

My steak looks good right!!

Ong's cutlet rice! She couldnt even finish half! It was really a lot of food!

After lunch, we went ahead to walk around and saw this lady haha! carrying her baby so funny, China style!
28th June: Yiwu in a Taxi!

Thought its really amusing why they need to enclose themselves in a plastic cover??

The huge Futian Market

30th June: Dinner @ Yiwu

We have had several days of breakfast @ Yiwu that was sub-standard, so every other day at Yiwu we ate KFC, until we got really sick and tired of it, we are cup noodles. This town does not seem to have any night supper places, well not that we know of. Until one of the folks there brought us to this Szechuan Mala place! Whoo.. now thinking of it, i am getting hungry.. This diced chicken was hot as in really nice! We already told the kitchen to not use the original "spicy" method, to lessen it a lot for us.. But still we had to drink lots of water.. SPICY!!!

Like a bowl of chili soup, this is fish inside.. Not that fantastic, too many bones!
The nice folks Eric & Rachel! Who brought us here and ate with us despite them not taking spicy food.. burnt their stomaches that day!

2nd July: At Guangzhou Airport

One of the worst carrying experiences ever.. Took a bus here to the Railway station to get to Hong Kong... The bus stopped us a distance away, normally a five mins walk to the station, but becos of our really heavy luggage, we really had lots of trouble.. Sigh..

Thought this was really broken english for an international airport.. haha!

Finally we reached the train station and could get some dinner. This place is really nice! A fast food chinese place! Its called some Kung Fu thingy, but really good food so far as compared to when we were at Yiwu! My fav soup and cabbages were all here!!!

Finally.... on the train to Hong Kong, you cannot imagine how happy we were to leave the sub-urbans and enter into a city.. We really were so looking forward to this!!!

The thoughts of things

2008-07-27T19:44:00.003+08:00

Just ended my conversation with Mr Ong and Sean & Nicole. I think that I have the talent. But i am not a talent plus. Looked around and thought that I have been only occasionally flapping my wings. And I have not placed my due diligence in working hard to train my wings to fly, to survive a longer period. I have assumed that my talents in singing, in character, in marketing, in human relations, in my physical self, in my spirituality is already much better than most people, so i, like the hare; took a rest. And got overtaken.

But well the good thing about this race, is that it has not ended yet. Becos of whatever gifts God has given me, I can still use it now, wake up my wings, my desires, my hard work and start flapping my wings. And once I get the hang of things, i can soar like an eagle, gliding in the air.

Its getting scarier by the minute, when finances overwhelm you. It brings me to the point of worrying, that every spare moment after my laughter dies down, i will be worried. I will put my trust in the Lord. Father, help me not to be worried.

Please bless Jerome, for he really has the heart of gold. He helps without expectations, never once seen him really count whatever he has given out.. Friends, Family, Me, Church..

That Lord, you will help him to seek his passion.

Amen.

Love,
Jewel

Updates to our travel!

2008-06-29T11:59:00.003+08:00

On our 1st night, we ate a really cheap meal! RMB20 for 6 small dumplings like those i Din Tai Fung, Dan zai Mian, Fruits Dessert, Soya Bean Milk, and Tou Sa Bao!!! Haha! And its nice!

How to walk on the inside out with Pastor Sally

2008-06-29T11:13:00.003+08:00

1. Discover your spiritual purpose in everyday circumstances.

Philippians 1:12-13 Advancing God's kingdom eventhough we are in the dire circumstances.

2. Develop your own Personal Conviction.

1 Peter 1: 6-7 We all have tough times. We need to develop a personal conviction. When the word of God convicts us, it must stay irregardless of the situation we are in. Tough times makes us stronger.

All of us have different tolerance levels.

1 Peter

Romans 2:5. God is developing something in me, when we are going through tough times. There is a reason.

3. Ditch the past and Walk in Victory

Do not let the past haunt you. Do not say its me, thats the way i am, thats the way i talk.

4. Decide to say No. 1 cor 6:12

E.g Buffet, we always say we are full, but when we see more food, we always cannot say no.

We do not say No to God.

Philippans 4:12-135

5. Determined to be dependent on Jesus for everything.

Determination and dependence is 2 different things. Determined to be dependent on Jesus for everything.

The world system is do it, just do it, everything can be done. God's grace is sufficient for us.

Apart from God, we can do nothing. That is how much God wants us to know that we are dependent on Him.

Young people always think that they have a lot of time, so they procrastinate. What we need to finish, we finish it today.

God is watching us.

Amen.

First Day in Xiamen, China

2008-06-25T19:52:00.005+08:00

This is our very first day in Xiamen, does not feel like China at all, perhaps all the China places that I had been to was the scenic and tourist places, this feels really backward and not interesting. Being the photo person like me, i didnt take more than 5 photos today. Amazing.

Well, its 8pm and we are back in the hotel room, nothing much to do as we have a long day ahead of us tomorrow and we need to re-org.

Went to try the foodcourt today and it tasted really bad.. Though it looked good.

In the end we had to resort to eating Mcdonalds.. Haha!

The traffic is quite scary, nearly got banged by a bus on our extreme right and it was right at my face.. when the brakes screeched to a stop.. phew..

Got "cut queues" by so many Chinese people that I decided no more nice lady here. Funny end to our first day, should go see this "Gulangyu" place that everyone is telling us about. Perhaps on the 27th when we have nothing much to do..

And a testimonial, one of the manufacturers told us that there will be typhoon and storms in Xiamen and Quanzhou where we are heading, and he told us to be careful! So we got Pastor Sally to pray for us, and when we were in the cab, the cabby driver told us that it was good, the storm made a turn and headed towards Shenzhen instead of here. God is good.. May He bless the rest of the journey! Amen!

Love,
Jewel in China, Xiamen Hua Xia Hotel!

Sunday with Pastor Irene

2008-06-22T11:44:00.001+08:00

Romans 8:19

When are you coming up to your destiny. Creation is moaning. When are we ever going to wake up and realise that we are an Eagle and not a chicken.

When are we going to wake up and realise that we are the son of God.

Let the glory and spirit come out. Lord let me not be jealous of other people's talent, let me appreciate the difference in the talent.

We are capable of so many things. God has given us so much but we under utilize. The computer can do so much but we

Christians: Just go to church. We take it as a religion. Come to the point that we are Sons of God, we are capable of more than that. God wants us to come up to that level.

When its something new, we are intimidated. God has given us the ability, but we need to learn the functions. We need to read our manual, the more we study, the more we practice, We exercise the faith, we become strengthened. We become skilled in the things of God.

The computer has to be plugged to a power source. We have to be plugged in to the Power of God. We must be connected. JohnL Vines and the Branches. Apart from Lord, we can do nothing. We must be connected to the Lord. There are always requirements, it does not mean we wake up and everything is ok. We must pray, we must read the word of God. We must be connected in our spirit. It is fundamental.

We need to be able to run at our optimum level, we need to frequently clean ourselves up. We must always recharge, we need to filled. When we run slow, everything is slow. We need to watch what we download into our computers, We need to watch what movie we watch, what we read, what we see, whom we follow, who we mix around with.

We need to share our thoughts, we need to run important and good softwares.

We need our senses exercised to discern both good and evil, we need to practice.

Hebrews 5:14. solid Food...

1 John 3:8 We need to grow up, take our rightful place. That we may destroy the works of the devil. We will set captives free.

Acts 10:38

The next time, someone tells you that they are sick. Try first.

By reason of youth, by practice. We will be able to do it.

Let God come out of us.

God's beauty and God's splendor to come out of us.

Christianity.. and me

2008-06-22T11:11:00.002+08:00

Christianity, what does it mean? Does it mean a generation of english speaking, charity giving, dressing well, jumping, worshiping, and activity after activity. Lord, I need to know what have you placed in me. What have I been doing?

An evening with Pastor Andrew

2008-06-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

It was a really rough day for me, trying to come up with the quotation and trying to stay positive that we will seal the deal! : )

So really felt very relieved to have cell today, and it was with the Vibrants @ their Revive Camp! Pastor Andrew from Cornerstone Church's Youth ministry came to share today! It was really an amazing night.

I enjoyed his preaching a lot today, "There is a time for everything". Ecc 3! There are things that we can choose and there are things that we cannot. God chose us, and He knew us from the moment we were a substance in our mother's womb. I am more amazed that someone so real, someone from our generation has placed his heart and soul into learning GOd's work and being a full time Pastor!

The time He shared about Job's story, that he knelt before God and said, Blessed be Your Name, you give and take away, naked I come, naked I go. It really touched my heart, God allowed trials and temptations in our lives, because He already knew that we will pass the test. He already know that we will be able to overcome.

God placed a calling in His heart to learn Indonesian songs.. and years later he is going to be preaching in Indonesia and leading worship in their language. He pursued his dream and cut an album with his youths with Integrity!

From 40 strong youths to 400 strong youths.. Only a heart after God can do it.

When we prayed, i felt God's presence strongly so much that I could not stop crying, its been such a long time before I felt the Holy Spirit so strongly. Pastor Andrew said he felt that I had lots of dreams when I am young, that I have a good spirit and that God gave me many gifts..

I cried because, when I was younger I always felt that someday.. I will be a Somebody. What kind of somebody, I do not know..

And I left my life in God's hands from tonight forth.. That he will take over and take control. I will not let the successes and the failures of this world control what God wants me to do.

Just when I was about to give up on our partnership, God sent us signs to continue. God works in miraculous ways, ways that are much higher than what we can conceive.

Pastor Rachel prayed for me, for our generation to rise up to our roles. For our cell, for my dreams. I prayed silently for salvation of Jerome & my family! God will do something greater in my life.

Jerome shared with me that we need people like Pastor Andrew, visionaries. We need help in the church, i shared with him, its time we rose up to the occasion. Its time our generation sowed into the lives of the people around us.

He said, these things can only be learnt in Bible School! So yes! Maybe perhaps, we should attend short courses together! Lord, may what you put in Jerome's heart come to pass, that he may go and bless others.

Pastor Rachel prayed for Jerome to grow and be strong in the word of God, it will come!

Thank you Lord, i cast all my cares upon you, I know that You will carry me through.

Amen.

Sunday Sermon with Pastor Sally

2008-06-08T11:29:00.002+08:00

1. God calls
2. Be Faithful - You need to be faithful.

Faithfulness is a character of God.

We are not like Christ yet, because we find it difficult to love people who are not faithful. Its tough.

We need to be faithful, slowly from occasionally, frequently, to consistently.

The resistance of Change

2008-06-07T22:03:00.004+08:00

Dear Lord,

How difficult is it for change Lord? How easy it is to dwell in the negatives of life? How easy for the devil to creep in with the perceptions and the notions? How easy is it to fall into bad habits?

I pray this day that Lord, I will remain Happy, not judgmental, and Lord no matter what the devil throws at me, I will still shine for you.

That the revelation of the shining light amongst the darkness, will the brightest and the most obvious target. Lord, let us as brothers and sisters in Christ stand together against the enemies. And not let the devil have any chance against us.

Amen.

The Eerie feeling of fear

2008-06-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

Fear and trials and testings always come after I share something, a testimony, some thoughts of anything positive. Just after always, when i share about not worrying and trusting God for the supplies and everything, it will come and haunt me.

God teach me how to stand firm in spite of everything else. The emotions and the fear of money is so strong. I wish I had the capacity to earn my own money and not have to depend on Jerome.

It sucks his energy and mine.

It makes me feel indebted and whatever.

Lord, help me to be able to at least able to sustain myself.

Amen.

Jewel

Sunday Service with Pastor Rachel

2008-06-01T11:43:00.004+08:00

The Lord gives life.

Genesis 17:3 Abram fell facedown, and God said to him

Romans 4:17

17As it is written: "I have made you a father of many nations."[a] He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were.

Do not give up! Begin to call forth the things that were not, as though they were. As God calls the dead into living.

God sees the positive aspect of all our lives.

"I need you" - Tell God that.

Think about my life, call forth those negative things that are in your life, for them to come to pass.

If God has called you to lead worship, see that you are leading worship.

Do not be disappointed.

Testimony:

1. A World Within
2. My Dad
3. China Trip

For the humility of self and the fear of people's comments. God forgives and you can try again. Amen.

Why is it that the devil tries to take away what you think? That when you did your best. When you put in effort, but the results are not what it is.

The fear of reality

2008-05-23T22:18:00.001+08:00

When the reality steps in, and you realise that there is no one whom you can trust except the Lord, that is the toughest thing one can ever expect..

Jewel

Amazing Love, it covers me

2008-05-18T11:15:00.002+08:00

Jonah.

He was angry. He disagreed. He wants to die - selfish. Silent Treatment. He refuse to change.

1 Peter 4:8 "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."

Let's not just go through the actions, the Lord looks at the heart. The devil attacks your soul to attack your heart.

God will send Holy Spirit to speak to us when we are facing obstacles. When we cover each other in Love, the Holy Spirit will come and convict him.

The stones in our lives cannot be removed yet, they are still going to be there and will not go away. Until we surrender it all to God.

As long as we prefer to stay where we are, we will not be able to move on.

Do it daily! Let it go!

Made of Honor

2008-05-10T02:45:00.007+08:00

It was a last minute decision to go watch the movie! But I have been wanting to watch this movie ever since i saw the trailer whilst watching P.S. I Love You! And i did not regret it! A beautiful story, with a beautiful ending! Funny, and touching.. A thumbs up, makes me feel that marriage is so sweet and loving!

A verse that reached out to me...

2008-05-04T12:09:00.002+08:00

James 1:26

If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. 27Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

this is something that we all need to remember!

How to triumph over temptations?

2008-05-04T11:16:00.011+08:00

"Open the floodgates of Heaven, Let it rain"

How do u trust God totally? What is that we must do right before can open the floodgates of Heaven?

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Only when you are not alive, then you will not be tempted. Everyone of us go through temptation.

Who is the source of all temptations?

The moment someone tells you not to touch, you will be tempted to touch. Examine our lives.

The person tempting us is ourselves. How do you tempt yourself?

James 1:13

"When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. 15Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death."

Trials and temptations are two different things.

Temptation is the one tat will continuously sabotage you to to accomplish what God wants to do in your lives.

Temptation comes from within. Trials comes from external pressure.

How you respond to your "trials" situation determine how u are going to grow in the Lord.

When we face temptation we usually want to find a way of temptations. But sometimes we do not want to find a way out, because it might look good, feel good.

The devil wants to come and steal, kill and destroy.

Falling prey to temptation involves a series of steps:

When you look, you assess and see is fine.. But only when you start desiring.

Temptation is internal pressure.

We must stop doing the blaming game.

If you do not identify with it, you cannot deal with it.

1. Do not go near temptation
2. Flee from it

Who is the source of triumph; God

What kind of Candy am I???

2008-04-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

The Parable of Talents - Pastor Sally

2008-04-20T11:13:00.012+08:00

14"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. 15To one he gave five talents[a] of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. 17So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. 18But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.

19"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'

21"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

22"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'

23"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

24"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'

26"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

28" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. 29For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'

Talents - Two months wages.

Today, its not talents = money. Talents = investing their lives.

We all need to look into the word of God and not opinion of people.

Why did the master assign the talents that way? The master assigned to them each according to their abilities.

We are given opportunities according to our abilities. All of us will be given oppo in our lives, we will not ahve the same equal opportunities. Its not because God loves us less, but its because of our abilities, and because if that he entrusted talents to each servant.

1) We will not have equal opportunities
2) We will not have equal abilities
3) We do not handle responsibilities equally

Jesus gave OPPORTUNITIES, RESOURCES & SKILL.

The servant who got one; would think why the rest got more talents and he only has one?

Many of us are not contented with ourselves; we look at ourselves and we desire to be like our "idols".

God knows each and every one of us, he knows our abilities, he believes in each and every one of us. However, our problem is we are not contented with what we are given. Why so and so is so successful , why can't I? and a lot more of such questions.

Its about time, we embrace what God has given us, with contentment and gratitude, and decide what we want to do with our talents.

The servant with the one talent is afraid of losing the talent. The rest took the responsibility, they were faithful adn they went to work their talents. We always want the easy way out - we need to work hard.

Whatever God puts in your hands, put it to work.

It is God's desire to bless you, his desire to transform you.

Jesus is holding your hands, as long as you do not let go. No matter how hard times may be, because if you are holding on to God's hand you will come out victorious.

Five talents were a few things, "few things" and then he got promoted to the "many things".

If you run away from your responsibilities, you will be delaying your promotion.

If you are the person holding on to the one talent, we are given a few thousand dollars, we become afraid that we will lose the money, we hide it as we think its their hard earned money. But when we are called "wicked and lazy servants", how would we feel?

The moral of the story is this; everyone of us has abilities but we choose to bury it.

Mostly we are lazy people... said the bible... if we hide our talents.

Sometimes we cannot see beyond ourselves that we can multiply the talent.

SIdetrack: If I am the master, and i am giving the money why am i labeled a hard man?

In verse 24: 5So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.

If you do not even know what God has placed in you, you will always be afraid and always hiding. The man with one talent, did not feel that the talent belonged to him.

The master took the talent from him and then gave it to the one with five talents.

Is this fair? There are certain principles in life, the more you apply the word of God, the more you receive, the more you use it, the more you will not lose it.

Whatever God has given you, use it. SO that you will not lose it.

The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. This makes the most difference, we procrastinate..

We need to work on our strength, and not on our weaknesses. When we work on our strength, we double up really fast, but if we work on our weaknesses, then its always so much slower, that is not our strength.

The bible says: "You must forgive him 490 times in one day! Not in a whole lifetime." - Luke 17:4

The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant

21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"

22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[a]

23"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants.

Footnotes:

1. Matthew 18:22 Or seventy times seven

4If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, 'I repent,' forgive him."

"Oh how many times have I broken your heart, but still you forgive if only i ask."

Thank you Lord, and please forgive me for burying the talents that you gave me. and Please forgive me for wasting your talents and that i was not a good steward for the talents you entrusted me.

Please do trust me again.

Amen.

When we want to reach our to people, we need to take care of this body of ours. If God is our everything, honour him, by loving ourselves, respecting ourselves and others.

If we all are trying to change, the work becomes harder when there are some who refuse to.

So we will all work harder!!!

Just a little snap shot of us @ church!

The Parable of the Talents

Spending time with God

2008-04-19T01:06:00.004+08:00

After a long day's work, I wanted to switch the television on and just chill. But Isaac's sharing in cell sparked a thought in me, I could spend some time with God. I struggled honestly, to want to just not do anything..

So I guess here I am, just want to pray and ask God for some peace that I have done what I can for the business, and now I will leave the rest to God. And while tomorrow, I concentrate on doing God's work and praising Him, I will get peace.

Lord, may i pray for ong now that she may get a touch from you and that she will be able to walk in the direction that you want her to go. I pray for your hand in all that she does, and all that I do, that everything we do may bring glory to you, and excellence to your name.

Lord, also bless Jerome with wisdom and discernment to know when to work and when to play, may he attain his dream just so that Lord, you may fulfill your purpose in him.

Lord, please bless esther's project that she will get creativity in her, Lord you are the one who created all that is in the earth, may she be able to see what you saw in creation.

I pray for Agnes Lord, that she will find her direction in life too, that she will find that one thing she is passionate about, that I can grow to love and care for her as much as you do.

Realization in my brother, for him also Lord to be happy, for him to know that despite everything, he is still very much loved by us.

Lord, for all that is in my mind, for all my burdens I lift it to you, thank you so much for being my shelter and providing for me. Lord, grant me the contentment to live the life that you want me to live.

In Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

The Difficulties of business

2008-04-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

Really understand the frustrations of business, and understand why only 10% of the people population make it in life. I am tempted to give up, but the spirit in me is pushing for me to go the extra mile! I need to be able to stay focus and be creative in all that I do. To learn the ropes of business and be a success.

Lord, may you assist me in all that I do, may you guide me on all the decisions that I have to make. Let me be encouraged by you Lord and not by the circumstances around.

Amen.

Love,
Jewel

Enthusiasm in the Lord Part Two

2008-04-06T11:01:00.007+08:00

1 Timothy 6:12 "Fight the good fight of the faith."

The fuel that was placed inside of us is the blood of the lamb. It was paid at a high price. The devil came to rob us of the joy.

Once he steals your joy, you will lose enthusiasm, lose your joy, lose your confidence and you will lose the power of faith.

The Lord wants to restore you one notch more; higher.

We are our own enemy; our mind is our obstacle to what God is calling us to. "Put on the mind of Christ"

Dun get tired of running the race, and of fighting the good fight. We are fighting the fight that cannot be lost. Its a fixed match. There's no way we can lose.

Unless, you willingly lose, unless you got bribed to lose.

CHANGE. We need to change our mindset.

In Habakkuk 3:17-18, He is experiencing failure, lack, no fruits, no blessing, he thought of quitting. YET i will rejoice, no matter how far away, no matter what I am experiencing. When you purpose yourself to be enthusiastic, to God's purposes.

Habakkuk chapter 3

17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

Nehemiah 8:10 "The joy of the Lord is my strength"

We all have problems, who does not have problems.

All the problems in the world is more or less similar; money, relationship, family.

It takes conscious effort to rejoice in the Lord. Many times we don't feel like worshiping the Lord.

Many of us are overwhelmed by many things.

PURPOSE in LIFE: God wants to deal with disappointments today.

We get disappointed even with God, we do not understand how God moves. God wants to release that emotional part of our lives.

Disappointment in life. The key this morning: YET!

When we are in love, love makes you do crazy things. Fall in love with God.

A lot of us do not want to be noticed, how can we make disciples then?

Habakkuk 3

19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.
For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.

The result of your enthusiasm is that God becomes your strength.

We are always giving excuses for ourselves. Find out what is the root of your excuse? Then remember that these are excuses.

BE ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT YOUR LIFE.

God does not want us to remain where we are.

Nehemiah 8: 3 He read it aloud from daybreak till noon as he faced the square before the Water Gate in the presence of the men, women and others who could understand. And all the people listened attentively to the Book of the Law.

They read the word for half a day and they do it for seven days. In life, modern day, we all have our own preconceptions, principles in life. If you want to prosper in God. Let us go back to the basics; the word of God. The principles of God will never fail in your life.

We need to understand the word of the Lord. Being Enthusiastic is good, but we need to have the knowledge too. Enthusiasm without knowledge resulted in a mishap e.g. When David brought in the ark of the tabernacle.

We need to have focused enthusiasm.

In our lives we need to apply the word of God but how can we apply it if we do not know the word?

Nehemiah 8:8 They read from the Book of the Law of God, making it clear [a] and giving the meaning so that the people could understand what was being read.

10 Nehemiah said, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength."

Change can be revolutionary (completely new) or evolutionary (slowly changing). A lot of our lives needs to be slowly changed.

1) To get enthusiasm, we must first understand the value of enthusiasm. Enthusiasm is something we all need. A lot of us are waiting; for someone to come and excite you, to push is, for life to change. But all we do is wait.

"Farmer was resting, he was a lazy farmer, suddenly a rabbit ran across hit a stone and had a heart attack and died. He thought to himself, wow if everyday a rabbit comes and has an accident, he will have food everyday!" It never happens.

If you are sitting down and waiting for love, you will not be able to find it. You need to look for love.

Do not sit down and wait for God to do something, we must give, we must sow and then we will reap.

2) Take responsibility for your own enthusiasm. - Be excited about your own life.

Disneyland mentality: "When we go to Disneyland, and we become happy but on the way to Disneyland, we fight? Quarrel? and only when we reach there do we be happy?" Its not about the destination, its about the journey. It is our journey there that matters.

3) Excited people make other people excited. They add value to your life. If you are with boring people, you want to go home. It is contagious.

People tends to connect visual. When they do not see the enthusiasm in your face, they do not feel it.

"If you have it flaunt it, if you don't have it fake it? - Faith it!"

I must put my faith in the Lord, "act" courageous and then slowly gain the faith!

"make a joyful noise unto the Lord"

It is the Grace of God that matters.

SMILE!!!!

1) Fake it till you make it? - Eat a banana : )
Fake joy is better than genuine depression.

2)Forsake it(negative feelings) till you make it. - Dun let your emotions control you.

3) Break it (bad habits)till you make it. Procrastination - Tomorrow never comes. Forgetfulness. (give away the book of excuses)

4) Stake it till you make it. Claim it, declare it. Be enthusiastic about it, study about it to know how to make it work. iTs never easy.

5) Take it till you make it. Endurance.

Lets run the race. Fight the good fight.

"youth olympics" - you got to keep training. do the due diligence. Do not be only the claiming christians. Be the declaring and then the working christians.

ENTHUSIASM with WISDOM

The urgency in life

2008-04-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

The urgency in life as compared to trusting that God will take care of my needs.

I am wondering. I came home and saw my dad sleeping, with muscle pain relievers sticked all over his arms. I felt ashamed, that i am unable to provide for my dad to stop working. Makes me feel inspired to work harder towards my goal. As well as to trust God that He loves my dad more than I know or will ever understand. Thus, God will take care of him too.

Now my one wish is for my family to be saved. And Jerome's family to be saved. For then, we will be relieved to at least know that it is done.

I need to focus. I need to be able to hold the fort!

Amen.

Taking Baby Steps @ a time

2008-03-31T12:53:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning and looked around me, wondering why I seem to always be stuck in some similar situations. And I realised what Sean said yesterday. He said, that its the same as the story of the stone in the middle of the road. There was a man who traveled the same path to the market every month. And every month, he would go through the same road and trip over the same stone. And every single time, he would exclaim in pain of how he should have seen it coming.

Same goes for me, if i always have the same stumbling block in my life, it must be because I have not sat up and paid enough attention to avoid that stumbling block.

So i have decided to take baby steps at a time to walk towards the life that God wants for me.

Amen!

Enthusiasm in the Lord

2008-03-30T13:10:00.001+08:00

God can take care of you even if you have no money in your wallet.

1) How many of you feel excited about your life?

Not really...

2) How many of you are excited about your life?

Hmm...

Enthusiasm and excitement is a matter of choice that you make.

Are you excited about God?

It is a choice to be excited about God.

Its easy to be excited about something, but its never easy to stay excited.

Its very easy to buy a car, but to maintain a car its difficult.

Sometimes in our lives, we put emotional brakes up; thats why the enthusiasm cannot come out.

Emotional brakes stop you from being excited:

1) Childhood suppression - Children are rivers of joy, excited and bubbly. But as parents, they might always suppress the children; to be quiet. After a while, children think that being quiet is a normal thing to do, they lose their creativity or the ability to be themselves.

2) Adult Peer Pressure - Remain poised and sophisticated till we become cold. People who are not confident in themselves, people who have no confidence, insecure will never let your true

God can take care of you even if you have no money in your wallet.

1) How many of you feel excited about your life?

Not really...

2) How many of you are excited about your life?

Hmm...

Enthusiasm and excitement is a matter of choice that you make.

Are you excited about God?

It is a choice to be excited about God.

Its easy to be excited about something, but its never easy to stay excited.

Its very easy to buy a car, but to maintain a car its difficult.

Sometimes in our lives, we put emotional brakes up; thats why the enthusiasm cannot come out.

Emotional brakes stop you from being excited:

1) Childhood suppression - Children are rivers of joy, excited and bubbly. But as parents, they might always suppress the children; to be quiet. After a while, children think that being quiet is a normal thing to do, they lose their creativity or the ability to be themselves.

2) Adult Peer Pressure - Remain poised and sophisticated till we become cold. People who are not confident in themselves, people who have no confidence, insecure will never let your true self come out. We need to let that person that God wants you to be not to be locked inside.

Let's take the word of God and make it practical.

We need to make a conscious effort to remove the emotional brakes.

Whatever is good, keep on working at it.

Tune in next week to know the 11 ways to build the enthusiasm back into our life.

Amen.

-Pastor Frankie-

.;- self come out. We need to let that person that God wants you to be not to be locked inside.

Let's take the word of God and make it practical.

We need to make a conscious effort to remove the emotional brakes.

Whatever is good, keep on working at it.

Tune in next week to know the 11 ways to build the enthusiasm back into our life.

Amen.

-Pastor Frankie-

Vision of the Angel with the Golden Wings

2008-03-30T11:00:00.003+08:00

Eric shared with me on the vision, that previously i was not serious in my prayers, i do not sincerely believe that God will provide for me, will protect me.

God will protect me, He is showing me that He will care and protect for me.

And finally I will step out in faith and go out and face the world.

He said, that in the Bible, God said that He will cover me in the shadows of His wings.

Amen

The Christian Battlefield

2008-03-28T01:39:00.004+08:00

For the first time in my life, I felt that I could hear the war cries around me. First time I noticed the war zones in my life. And I realised that I have not been preparing for the war, I have not believed in the spiritual warfare that I hear Christians talk about.

I felt lost, depressed, and filled with strife. I really didn't feel like sharing today and i asked God what He wants to do for the cell, what He wants to share in the cell?

I hear a prompting in me to talk about the Armor of God, to put it on and prepare for battle. The belt of truth, the helmet of Salvation, the sandals of peace, the sword, the shield of faith.

I really placed my faith in God to lead the sharing, to share the experiences that I had these few days with our cell.. And God just led me to the article on the internet about the armor of God. Lord, I pray that I will remember these two weeks, and be at a constant spiritual readiness for the war that is already ongoing.

I was truly blessed when Cass shared with me a vision she saw. She saw me kneeling down on a cushion, and praying and there is a majestic angel with gold wings encompassing me in an embrace. Shielding me, its gold wings reflecting the light into the darkness that was surrounding me. I peep occasionally but i wanted to escape and could not face up to reality. And slowly the darkness around me became fire, and i could feel the heat, but i still did not want to face up to it, and I slowly opened up and walked to face what I have to face.

This is truly like how i felt, that I want to remain in my comfort zone, my protection, and although i see the needs of the world, i just want to turn a blind eye and continue leading my normal life.

I need to be a light to shine into the world.

Amen.

All about Jewel Tan

2008-03-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

I realised how a "3 minutes Fever" person I am after looking at all the blogs that I have started.. Hmm.. now i think i need to re-org a little! Okie lets see...

Jewelserene.blogspot.com - is my deep thoughts, reflections, my walk with God.
onecloudyday.wordpress.com - is my pastry dreams, and my personal collection of everything under the sun
alady'slife.wordpress.com - is about my thoughts on being a lady, about the lovely marriage experiences but somehow, beautiful things also go on onecloudyday.wordpress.com.

Hmm.. anyhow, so from now.. these is all of course then there is

aworldwithin.wordpress.com
whiteaffections.blogspot.com

Oh man.. Now i really beat myself to the game..

That is it.

Jewel

Worship Conference

2008-03-23T22:21:00.003+08:00

You should be called where Worship leading is concerned, you are not leading people in songs only, demonstrating the lifestyle of worship, its a major responsibility. You need to serve a number of years.

He always says: Watch your leaders and mirror them, if you are not practicing as a leader then how can you encourage under you to develop. Practice yourself. Do not become a great musician to be a great musician.

You need to maximise the time when the worship team are together, you never have the chance to let them hang around. When we are on stage worshipping, this is not hard work, our focus is not on the music, is what is happening with the people and in Heaven.

Have a plan, do not just have the desire. The temple musicians, the amount of training that they have just to lead worship.

Be the best that you can be.

Exodus 3 Be skilled, develop your giftings. What are the steps we take to develop ourselves?

The whole musical and spiritual aspect. Never become stagnant. Keep the team focused. Musical expertise, when we say singer or musician needs to be skilled. All needs to be inspired by the Holy Spirit.

Listening is crucial. We need to listen to each other and the spirit of God, not be busy singing. We must train ourselves to be skilled enough to follow any type of service.

Sensitivity.

Meet the needs of the people, whats happening with the people?

We could missed the moment, if we are not listening to your spiritual ears, do not stick to the rehearsed. Music is a spiritual thing.

Music is a language.

Words is not enough in a language, music is a language. Every song has a different vocabulary. God is ready to move, are we?

Church music; there are awesome moments, how do you play along with Angels? Listen and duplicate, especially if you are talented.

Chronicles, we can worship for hours.

Are you ready for what you believe what God wants to do?

God starts with our natural ability, Prayer!

The prayer aspect, we are all not at the same place spiritually. Sensitize our ears, first 10 mins. How are you? - They do not say fine.

Focusing on the team members, everyone is special and everyone knows their place. When you say lets practice, its a different practice.

Music is healing. Rehearsals can be healing too. The team is a part of God is doing in the general church.

BIBLE STUDY. strengthen our faith, foundation. Empowerment. Important. Biblical foundation.

Leader finds out their lives of the people. We are all out looking out for one another. Spiritual immaturity. Sharpening the spiritual aspect of members.

How skillful should we be to lead the team?

Structure of leadership team. Delegate. It depends on what aspects on the skills. Develop those who has the talent and strengths. Watch the hearts of the people. Alert, preceptive and discerning and encourage.

Do not do everything yourself.

Its more than music.

Ask some questions about the past and you will know the problems.

You can only take someone as far as you have gone yourself?

How does one motivate and encourage the team to excellence?

The Bible; James 4. You do not have what you ask, because you are asking for the wrong motives.

Are you practicing? If you wish to be better singer?

Listen to God. What is saying to me?

In His Presence, lock yourself away in His Presence. Open you Bible, your guitar, and let GOd be your audience. Fill me with the wisdom and knowledge of Heaven, show me how I can serve my leader better.

Amen.

Its a great worship conference and felt really inspired by this. May God help me to make right my motives and for me to move in the direction that He wants me to.

Jewel

-on the road to discovery-

Your Confidence in God

2008-03-23T11:05:00.004+08:00

Influence
God is telling us; we can be an influence and change people's life. But before that we ourselves must change. We must change our mindset when we get born again. We need to put on the mind of Christ.

God is teaching us to be positive influence. Change must come from the heart. When you speak people will hear the change.

Passion
When we have passion, we have excellence.

Compassion
Compassion will compel you. We need to have commitment. God will never fail you, even if you fail God, God will still be committed to you!

He picks you up from the miry depths, no matter how many times you fall.

When we walk with God, there is always someone looking after me.
God wants all of us to become leaders, to be the head and not the tail. Assume your leadership qualities.

Where there is influence, you will see Change. The world will be a better place, one star fish at a time..

Because of that one Man who stood up that we can stand here today, saved.

Team work and Working the team. - Team but no work; nothing gets done. But if you get work and no team, it will never work.

CONFIDENCE

Confidence in God, not confidence in what I can do and my skill or in man. When I put my confidence in God, things start to happen. At times, we go through a roller coaster ride with confidence. How can we get confidence?

Hebrews 10:35 "So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded."

Why do we not share the salvation? We lack confidence.

(I felt that; when I wanted to pray for my aunty during her time of need)

God wants us to be confident in Him.

1. We can lose our Confidence
2. Our confidence carries a great reward - we need to build on that confidence.

Confidence in not boldness. Its inside of you.

Why do we need Confidence?

1) Confidence will produce stability in every area of your life and your situations.

Hotdog seller; an illiterate man. Business was good, and he ordered a truckload more of hotdogs and buns. However, his son; who is a college graduate told him that there is a recession coming along and people will stop eating out. So he reduced his orders and decided not to invest so much is his business.

As the days passed, the business needed more of the resources but he refused to order as his son continued sharing with him about what's in the news, of the bad news of recession.

Slowly, his business failed.

There are people who boost your confidence, and there are people who steals and robs you of your confidence. Discern who you mix with.

Confidence = contented with self

Philippians 4:11/13
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength."

2) Confidence stretches you.

A rubberband is useless if it does not stretch. A rubberband that is kept for a long time, ts difficult to stretch or it might break. When you have been stretched often, its easier. We can be used of the Lord.

People who are insecure do not want to be stretched. People with insecurity will not want to build people up, because they themselves are not sure themselves.

Paul in his writings uses "confidence" 6 times referring to Christ, 6 times "self" and 6 times in "other people". We need a balance, we need confidence in God, self and people. We are made to be conquerors.

How to become Confident?

1) Establish your worth in God; know that you are valuable in God's eye.
Know that God made you unique and there is no other like you.
Know that God believes in you.

2) Focus on God and not on your problems

Psalms 27: 1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh, [a]
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confide

We no longer fear because we have confidence.

Confidence comes not because of the lack of problems. Problems will exist all the way. There will always be problems. But when confidence comes when we see all this problems but yet we see God, we see the unlimited resource, the ability that God has given us, God's people.

3) Develop friendships with people that are confident.

Proverbs 14:26 "He who fears the LORD has a secure fortress (Confidence), and for his children it will be a refuge."

4) Make a victory list of what happened in the past.

Samson and David. Both have similarities, both anointed and both called to be leaders, both fighting common enemies.

Difference:

Samson wanted to please himself. David wanted to please God.
Samson depended on his own strength. David depended on the strength of the Lord.
Samson fought without God. David inquires of the Lord; "should i pursue"
Samson ended his leadership role and his life. David began his leadership role in his life.

It might make you proud too, if you write a victory list, so be careful.

David made a victory list: He killed a bear, a lion and now I can defeat Goliath.

God has done many things for us that we can be confident in Him.

Be confident that God has used you.

To increase your confidence:

VIP: Stop comparing with others!

Stop comparing your worth with others, we are all worth the same thing with God.

One day a Lady was walking, feeling insecure and rejected because she is poor. And while she was walking, God said "Look" and she saw a 50cents coin on the floor. The coin is dirty, looks like its been the sewers and been through many things in life, the coin may look dirty, the coin is still worth 50cents, it will not be degraded.

If you want to be special, specialize in something that you are good at until you are special.

When a person goes through a lot of failures, the confidence level falls.

When you have confidence in God, in other people, in self plus skill, it will give you momentum, its a powerful force.

There is a train in New York City when stationary, with just a small one inch block, the train cannot move. However, when its a full speed ahead, it can crash into a 5 foot steel concrete wall.

The devil wants to rob us of the confidence in God.

Let us regain the confidence in God.

23rd of March 2008; Easter Sunday.

-Pastor Frankie

The Valley of the Shadow of Death

2008-03-23T11:02:00.003+08:00

Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, your perfect love is casting out fear!

In all my days that I have been on this earth, never have I felt such unimportance in money and situations. Not that I felt without money I can accomplish lots of things, but on the contrary I felt that the lack of money, and the perception of money is the root of all problems and evil.

For the lack of money, my uncle succumbed to the threats of guilt. Now I understand the importance of church, the importance of spiritual parents, for when you need to talk to someone, God will lead that person to advise wisely.

My uncle said he prayed, prayed to his gods for an answer, and they told him that all will be fine. So he went bravely, and unafraid of what it is to come on the surface, but deep inside the fear surmounts. How does one face the consequences of a misdeed that he did not do? How does the fear of punishment leads one to accept a lightened punishment in the light of his innocence?

For I faced situations like these before, lesser in severity but similar in nature. And I could seek counsel, from Godly people who prayed for me for peace but yet gave me earthly and wise advise. Contradictory that the other religions’ wise people they call are lesser educated. But that is my assumption. Now I do see where God is leading us. Now I do see why there is an importance in all the teachings of Christianity, that we not only walk by faith but by the leadership of the world as well. For in the Bible it says, that we have to obey and follow the laws of the righteous.

I sat there in the other side of the world, in the other part of the world that I have never been before nor dreamt of threading within. I understood the fear, I felt the pain, and I wanted to give everything that I had to change the situation. It suddenly dawned on me that everything didn’t matter, what matters most is my uncle’s decision. I looked at him, head bowed in the court, hair shaved, in the orange overall labeled a criminal, labeled guilty as charged. Eyes are on him, people around whispering all sorts of possibilities and crimes that he might have committed. My aunt sat there, struggling with all her might to keep her tears from falling, struggling very hard to be silent, as if the whole court might awake from its slumber should a pin fall, as they await the honorable Judge. I looked at the judge, I prayed and hoped that God may show them visions of justice. True visions of justice.

I stepped into the room of her honor.. I looked around, and saw photos of her and her little girl, she looked just like any one of us, a possibility that one day some one close to her might face the exact same charges, the exact same innocence to be proven. I wished so much to have a private talk with her. To tell her how much I know that my uncle is innocent. But who am I? What am I to do, that I can do that?

A burning sensation came over me to be someone great. Someone with influence and authority, that I may help these people, helpless and innocent. I prayed and asked God for favor and guidance that I may be someone different, that I may be able to help.

Compassion requires commitment. Its true. I experienced it for myself. It needs commitment, it requires intercessory desires. To feel for this people.

I waited outside the Queenstown Remand Prison and waited with my aunt for my uncle to be released. The wait seemed never ending, and yet the fear of what he would feel when he comes out, what do we say, do we pretend, or do we re-assure him?

Minutes seemed like hours ticked by. And still no sight of him. I muttered a prayer underneath my breath and hoped that my aunty will be strong.

When everything in your life seems to be perfect, we never once thought about moments like these. We never expect that someone so young, so vulnerable will do something so evil and so cruel to someone close to you.

People say jealousy and anger leads one to do crazy things. Finally I see it for myself.

Till now, I can only hope and pray for a miracle. For God’s mercy and grace to come over my uncle now. I pray that his life will be changed. That he will accept Christ and Christ alone can help.

Its an urgent call to help and save the world. But for every single time, we take off to help just one person, it makes a world of a difference to that one person.

May God empower me to do His will. May I not use my man’s wisdom but the wisdom bestowed upon by Him.

Discipline in life

2008-03-11T02:46:00.002+08:00

The book i was reading said this: Discipline is not given overnight. It needs or requires small steps at first, baby steps to take to be able to overcome our habits. I need to break my habits, i need to move on in my life. May every step be a learning process for me.

Jewel

-on the road to discovery-

My Road to Discovery

2008-03-11T02:13:00.002+08:00

I woke up this chilly morning undecided and unhappy, thought to myself what is life about? Perhaps its due to the monthly moodswing that I have, or its truly bcos I am lost? I felt cold, and just wanted to continue sleeping. I woke up, ate something, and went back to sleep again. In the midst of all the dreaming, I decided that well i could spare some time. But in Joyce Meyer's "I Dare You to embrace life with PASSION", she said, time is our most valuable commodity. So while i am not going to give up, what I feel God has placed in my heart to do, I will start on a Road to Discovery. I will first start with being more observant, being more "deep in God's presence" to see what He wants to tell me about my life. Being more aware of the feelings and the honest emotions that I truly have in my life.

This road to discovery will lead me to God's calling in my life. what may it be? I am excited to find out. My life has only just begun.

Amen.

Love,
Jewel

-on the road to discovery-

P.S I love you

2008-02-26T01:38:00.001+08:00

When a great story hits you, the inspiration of the movie brings you much hope and zest for life. I had a date with Jerome today! Went to watch a movie, its been a long time since we last watched a movie together, just the 2 of us. We watched a romantic comedy: "P.S I Love You." It was a really beautiful movie, made me laugh and cry at the same time. Inspired me and Jerome too, to not keep waiting for life to start, but instead to know that life has already started, we just have to enjoy it. That faith in life, and in carrying on with life when things crop up, when people go away..

A really beautiful movie that really perked me up! Made me sit up and think and want to do the best in my life. Even when I came back home, to read my book; it wrote do everything with excellence and you will be one of the few with that passion.

Its been a long time, since I last written and when I last sat down by the cafe to drink a cup of tea and to read a book; reflecting on life and just spending time with myself. I miss those times. And now I think I am prepared to do that.

This movie also led me to think, that yes, the internet has taken us to another level of emails and blogs. But writing in letters are still the best and romantic ways of communication isn't it?

So now, in a world within, I would like to do that, to bring back the romantic feel of lovely and pretty things. To try to inculcate my passion in life, where snowglobes have the magical feel to it.

May God inspire me further.

Amen.

P.S Watching movies once in a while is really a great boost to morales.. Next up, i want to watch "Made of Honor"

love,
jewel

The pain in love

2008-01-08T03:54:00.000+08:00

Perhaps till the time I get my own child, this is the closest I will get to feeling the pain of love. We adopted a dog recently into my otherwise peaceful family, but my dad, sis and jerome are dog lovers and though i could be selfish enough to demand not having the dog, I cannot seem to put my feet down to doing it.

So yes, we adopted the dog 2 months ago, exactly. Now its 7-8 months old, and I have grown to love the dog! Unbelievable as it is. However, its gotten the habit of biting our shoes, tearing up newspapers, and plastic bags and etc.

So tonight was one of those nights that I had to stay up extremely late to do some work, and I caught him messing up the entire house, with shoes being wet with his saliva too.. I really had to stand there and think, we tried all methods, from hitting him, to scolding him, to being nice about it, and etc but nothing seems to be working, i stood there staring at Mocha, and he sat there with his droopy eyes, keeping all quiet and you really cannot stand being angry with him for long. However, I knew that something had to be done.

So I had a thought, to open the front door and point at it, to tell him to leave. Mocha sat there staring at me, refusing to budge.

After some time, I dragged him by the collar and pulled him to the door, he tried his best to stop and i pushed him out of the house, and closed the gate.

He sat there with his tearful eyes staring at me, I had to harden my heart to point and ask the dog to leave, in my heart I was really afraid he might run away and not come back but i knew i had to keep up the act. Until minutes later, when i opened the door, he placed one paw fearfully in and threaded in softly. That really broke my heart, thats where i had the realisation that there is pain in love. When you want to teach someone you love, you need to be cruel to be kind.

I feel for my parents now, how they must have felt when they reprimanded us in the past. How they must have went back and cried, feeling the pain more than I did.

This really taught me to be more patient and tolerant towards anything.

God may you allow me to bring my family to salvation and for me to provide.

Amen

Jewel

How to hear from God?

2007-11-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

Sitting out in the alfresco area of our church, starts me thinking about redefining the lifestyle that i have been leading for the past 25 years.

Finally finished reading Joyce Meyer's "How to hear from God" It took me 2 months to finish reading the whole book, and yet some parts are forgotten already.. These few months of my life have been the most aimless and uninspiring moments I think i ever had so far..

The things that God has done for me are tremendous but my weak and uninspired self does not seem to be focusing on anything. And I seem to be stagnating at where I am.

Redefining my life: To trust God that He will direct my steps, one step at a time. To be at PEACE with the world and everyone else. God blesses my family with a little golden retriever puppy: Doogy! Redefining what my life means, what my purpose is in my life.

The latest book I aspire to finish would be: I Dare you to embrace life with passion; Joyce Meyer. When I was at the darkest moment, God led me to read the preface of this book. May the Lord reveal his revelation to me.

This is really a great place to relax and indulge in some self reflection..

So many choices to make, so many people to account for. Ask what is God's plan for this. Whether or not I feel peace to do any of the above.

God, please help me to close doors of opportunity if you think i should not be walking down that road.

Amen.

Stepping out into the dark and unknown waters

2007-10-25T17:38:00.000+08:00

Realised today that its not a bed of roses for these entrepreneurs that have started out and have made it successful. Found out that I had to pay GST for the goods that I wish to import, found out that there might be an issue to import candies as they might be dutiable goods and I might need a licence.

Need to be prepared and do I charge a GST amount or do I need to finalize my art work readily. I wish to do things right in the Lord and thus I need to take that step of faith and not be like what I was in the past to just depend on things to happen. If i want things to take place, I must make the effort to be in the know and be clear of the direction that I am heading.

Am blown away by the ideas that I see all around, am wondering what the focus is then for our business?

Where is the unique selling point?

Everything pastel and then?

I need to start off somewhere, and I pray that God you will guide me and not allow me to be disheartened by the things around me.

I must remain strong to pursue my dreams and make them come true.

Start thinking and be sure.

Amen

God takes care of the little details

2007-10-25T00:49:00.001+08:00

I wanted very much to get a casual black bag that is big enough for all my stuff! And while i was shopping at Tiong Bahru plaza today i couldn bare to part with the money to buy one! But God really takes care of the little details in my life.

Pastor Sally bought us gifts for the leaders! And normally wouldn it be a normal gift as she had to buy so many gifts! And she said it was just a simple gift!!!

But when i opened it up, it was a trendy and casual black BIG bag! God is amazing and I really thank Pastor Sally for blessing me!

If God can pay attention to such meticulous details, what more my future and my life? I was asking God for directions in my life, and like what Pastor Sally shared about her life, God is showing her one step at a time and I should trust God and have faith that he will show me where He wants me to go. I will take one step at a time, and he will open and close doors of opportunity for me!

Amen!

Jewel

Corkboard

2007-10-17T19:34:00.000+08:00

Amazing Love...

2007-09-14T03:02:00.000+08:00

I thought we had a great sharing at cell today. Even at the leaders meeting yesterday, i felt that I learned a lot. Like the "Squeeze a testimonial" from Pastor Sally. It amazes me how much one can take God for granted for the good things that he has given us. When asked to squeeze out a testimonial, everyone had a testimonial and it all blessed my heart. It was great! : ) And we celebrated Jennifer's birthday with a very special pumpkin yam cake! Wah aha!

Darling said to try to thank God every single night for something he did for us today. So I am thinking what can I thank God for today..

I thank God for good friends around me that truly care for me.

I thank God for my family!

I thank God I still have a roof over my head!

I thank God for my darling, what would I do without him?

I thank God that he changed my bedsheet for me cos it was causing an irritation to me for my nose, and re-arranged the donkeys nicely for me so that once i came out of the bath, I had a nice and comfortable bed to sleep in!

I thank God for Pastor Rachel who blessed my sister, jerome and me with chocolate muffins!

I thank God that darling bought me a new camera!!!

And many more..

God is good.. I want to pray hard Lord.

Guide me in your direction.

Amen!

The Cross Roads

2007-09-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

I feel as if I have reached a certain crossroad in my life. A split between the envious earning of money, and the chasing of my dreams and passion. I get motivated by the fact that people are earning money, but on the other end it might all not be wat i like. I enjoy being with people, having lunch with my friends, without agendas, and just be who I am. God, this time I really need a sign from you. I really need to know which route am I to take that has your blessings. Close the doors that you do not want me to take.

God, please assist me to know what your place for me in this world is to be. Thank you.

Jewel

Lost dreams and soul

2007-09-10T01:24:00.000+08:00

Been very lost recently. Cant seem to get anything going nor wanna sleep early. Yet in the wee hours of the morning, thats the time when you feel the worse. Just like what Pastor Frankie said; we are bounded by our past fears and failures that we cannot move on. We need to change and know that dreams are placed in us for a reason. Confidence in something that i must built in me. Procrastination is something i must get rid. Why am I not looking forward to life, and the future. Everything of me now seems to be stuck only now, this very moment and nothing further than that!

I need my inspiration and my soul back in order for me to chase my dreams. Do not be demoralized. For it will lead to a destruction of your dreams.

May God guide me and be with me on this tough journey that never seems to end. Or rather, its always the darkest before dawn.

Jewel

Organizing my life

2007-09-05T16:55:00.000+08:00

Was getting quite excited about the new additions and the new changes in my life. Taking up singing as my passion is something that i have always dreamed of but never ever started. How much of it will be a start of something new I am not sure. But its very rare that I am having that much desire for it. Its always been there but never something that is so real and so strong.

Of course the pressures are even higher.

Need lots of preparation and time scheduling.

God help me in this journey.

Amen

Success...

2007-09-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

"From a Banker to a Baker..." these were the words that caught my eye from the magazine: Vanilla.

Almost immediately i took it off the shelf and without perusal went ahead to make payment. At this moment in time, these words are crucial to me. I am contemplating, what is success? What is my passion? Are there any out there who thinks like me? We all strive for a future which we thought; we had it all planned.

We came through the system, fought through our education system. Found a good job that pays well, and struggled through the days and in no time realise that commitments have gotten more, and seemingly we seem to have no other time for our passions...

But till the day our tolerance level reaches its max.. We are at our crossroads.

I came to mine. And the most inspiring thing that happened to me is to find this magazine. There were so many ladies that have went through the same stage as me. And have courageously stepped out in Faith..

In this age, to be able to step out of our comfy careers and get started on our passion is really remarkable. Many a times, I contemplated to give up my dream. To give up my dreams to the realism of financial pressure. But i think our creator above never wishes for us to give up.

I really would encourage many to read the magazine.. Its different truly.

Its real women issues.

Even today in church, Pastor Frankie shared about Success.. or rather it was actually on THOUGHTS.

I am sitting in my room now, thoughts are already encompassing my mind. With the music in the background.. "All that I am, all that I do.. U.R.Y" Beautiful...

Just as I was about to complain about all that I am doing, God sends the sermon message across to me beautifully. Can I do it as unto the Lord?

"You are why I sing, you are why i love?"

I feel happy doing Hungrrry, being able to serve and in future try my baking.

I wanted to complain why is it only me that takes it seriously but i think, i cannot force people to take it as seriously as me. I can only inspire people. And to be a leader, i need to be a servant.

So apt, "Be transformed by the renewal of the mind" was the first words I hear from Pastor Frankie,

We have great potential to do great things for God. All we need to do is to capture our thoughts. God has assigned us and anointed us for greater things.

But what are this great things:

It can be as small as helping the old lady collect cans for a living. Or as big as Mother Theresa helping the poor in the world.

All these are great things, it just depends on the angle and the perspective we look at things.

Not everyone is called to be a Superstar, or a great politician, or a great docter. But everyone is called to do something great in one's life.

I want to pray for a Paradigm shift in my thinking.

"Reprocess your thinking process; put on the mind of Christ."

Pressing toward the Goal

Philippians 3

12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,[d] but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

God showed me this verse, just as I was feeling burnt out, just as I was afraid and just had a little argument with Jerome.

He is afraid as well, of the life ahead. And I do not want to hold him back from his success. I will be the reason and the motivation for his success.

And as God calls us to press on, we will press on in life and achieve his purpose for us.

Amen.

MVs made by fans

2007-09-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

I think its to be applauded, a lot of effort has been placed to do this.. And they know the show very well! haha!

Jewel

My Passion For Singing...

2007-09-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

Lets compile a list of songs I will feel for to sing..

Haha! This is OST for It all started with a Kiss...

Jewel

It all started with a kiss 2

2007-08-29T01:03:00.001+08:00

It all started with a Kiss

2007-08-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

I spent the last 2 days watching this drama serial; it all started with a kiss! Haha! A little slow for me to only see it now, but it set me thinking of alot of things. Many things in life, we have to work for it, and God will give you opportunities but not give you the gift straight away. And all these people who have cool jobs, have worked for it. Even in one of the last few episodes when the Rich "Qian Jing" wanted to marry Zhi Shu, she herself stated that she wanted to "Bu Lao Er Huo" Basically to not work hard for anything, and yet still gain from it. Which turned out fruitless. I am 25 already this year. And there were so many dreams that I wanted to achieve, I believed that God meant for me to do greater things. But i feel stuck here in my life. I need to move on. I need to work hard for my dreams. And not take the easy way out.

But first. I need to clarify my dreams and my prayers to you Lord. Lord may you let me seek your will. What is it for me to do?

A Divine Intervention

2007-08-25T03:09:00.000+08:00

I started to pour out my feelings before I started to read my quiet time chapter for tonight.. And the verse for tonight was:

Psalm 56

3 When I am afraid,
I will trust in you.

4 In God, whose word I praise,
in God I trust; I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?

I know its God's way of re-assuring me, I will not be afraid, I will walk and commit all plans to the Lord. And he will prosper me. Amen.

Thoughts and stuff

2007-08-25T02:54:00.000+08:00

I never thought growing up will be so difficult... With many responsibilities and many decisions to make. I want to provide for my daddy and mummy that they might have a good life. But i feel tired chasing and chasing.. I feel tired of the money game. Sometimes i just feel that I dwell too much... and that i need to uproot and take some control in my hands. I need new renewed faith in my life and let not others dictate what i can or cannot do.

Lord, I need your divine intervention in this life of mine. Where i know that human are prone to error, lord help me to ne more like you. To love and to be loved in return. To save my parents, out of despair, loneliness, desperation and the rat race.

May your abundance be on us Lord.

Amen.

Thoughts and reflections

2007-07-20T09:57:00.000+08:00

I just read through my blog, and realised that the day before i shared on not worrying. But yesterday, i received all my bills and I started to worry. Will we have enough money for the new office, will we have money to sustain the tenancy, will be be overstretching overselves.. Sometimes when we think that we have learnt something, we might not have. Mould these "ambassador of Christ" habits into our lives and we will become. I felt very lethargic today, still need to dress up formally and to go ahead to meet the client, but I guess habits need to be rebuilt.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

2007-07-20T09:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I just told myself to remember to be humble, that wealth and riches can always bring one to a stage where they think its all themselves, that they are the ones that made it happen. I do not want to enter that stage. But I will trust in the Lord and know that all that we have is given by him, he is the God of Miracles. And today's verse in Titus 3:2 "to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."

I was sleeping that day and God woke me up with the song "I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned. I'm alive and well, your spirit lives within me, because you died and rose again." It just resounded clearly in my head that I wake up singing it. God is amazing, he never lets me down and is always there supporting me. Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

2007-07-19T08:44:00.000+08:00

Success is habit. And I have been moulded into my routinal habits for 24 years, its time to rebuild that habit, and perhaps in the last 8 months these habits have been magnified. To an extent where I need to relearn successful habits, of waking up earlier each day to work, and to accomplish more in my work. But also more importantly, I realised that coming over to Property is really more than what I expected, I have my own time to read the Bible, and digest what God is saying to me each day..

Today's word "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race. I have kept the faith" This is very encouraging to me. That the Lord wants me to fight a good fight, whether for the church, for my family and or for my Business, it requires a good fight. And that at the end of it all, i need to keep the faith, keep my faith strong. To stand upright in times like these, where money is the driving factor. Just earlier in the week, the verse taught was about the Love of Money, seek contentment. And not chase money to a point where we are wicked. God has blessed me abumdantly, kept to his promise, that one should not worry but instead put our trust in the Lord, for he has promised that he will take care of us, even the birds in the sky, he makes sure they have food to eat. And God has shown me his mercy in times of trials. I shall be at peace to do his work. Lord restore me to what you want me to be, to be the light that shines in this world, that I may really place aside all my burdens and what ifs to chase after you.

Even Apostle Paul said , in times of trials when everyone deserted him, only the Lord stood by him, and gave him strength.

Lord, I commit our plans to you, that if it be your will, the office space will be a blessing. As what we shared with Pastor Sally, and the office space might so well lead to greater miracles. I commit the finances into your hands, that you will bless these hands that will be placed into the plough, that through our commitment to the place, we can also bring light to the industry, and sow a seed into their lives.

Also Lord, take away my fear, my inadequacies, that we may be able to influence the world, and not let it influence us.

Thank you Lord.

Amen.

My Daily Bread

2007-07-14T07:41:00.000+08:00

Very Happy today! Woke up early to do my daily bread! Today's reading is in 1 Timothy 5. The heading was: Advice about Widows, Elders and Slaves.

"Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers and youger women as sisters with absolute purity."

Brings me to a point that I realise, it does not matter how "older man" treat you and how they can be wrong. It matters when you do the same. Never treat a person harshly, for the spirit that follows the action might not be a good one, thus ruining a relationship with a fellow human being. Its going to be tough, but I guess the Bible is all about love. Let the evil ones be handled by God, why then should we bother our lives with these people? We still need to love and care as much as we can, but if advice falls on closed ears, then perhaps I should move on.

A women when married, are given the task of performing good deeds? Like bringing up the children, showing hospitality, helping those in trouble, and all kinds of good deeds. Its a no wonder isnt it? I always thought that I will never have the thoughts of these sort. This shows why most women like being hospitable, when we go to our friends' place, the mothers are always the ones being hospitable. While we always complain that women are kay poh, well its because they like to help those in trouble? Ah HA! A good understanding of the women race! hahaha!

I like this phrase, "Do not muzzle the ox while its treading out the grain, or the worker deserves his wages." Treat people who deserve it with respect right and do not restrain and punish these people.

"DO nothing out of favourtism." - Be fair in our judgment and show impartiality.

"do not share in the sins of others. keep yourself pure." - Its very difficult in this society today. And especially so when you enter into a world where money is the driving factor. Its sometimes a very thin grey line.. Which you need to tread slowly. I am glad this decision was made, not to be driven by money but by conscience.

At last but not least, I pray that Lord you will open my eyes in this world Lord. Show me and guide me. Provide me with the wisdom I need in this world today. That I will do good deeds as unto the Lord. That I shall seek knowledge and wisdom more than gold and silver, to seek a good name more than gold or silver.

Lord, open up my eyes, and take away my weariness for today lord. Guide me in this new life changing direction, I commit my plans to you today Lord. That I will make plans and only count on you to direct them.

I pray all this in Jesus name.

Amen!

Its going to be a great day! Great morning!!!!

Jewe

marina south steam boat!

2007-07-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

it was a very hectic morning! Needed to do my work and also make sure i do the most productuve ones first! And then went to meet thia, we went shopping.. At first it was just watching her shop... Haha! Then after we rested for a drink, we continued and i bought 2 new pairs of shoes and a white bag! So happy cos one shoe is flat good for walking around and one is for work... We went to meet dede and ck came to pick us up! Haha ummm went through the round about twice lor! Hahaha! Anycase, we went over in his new honda accord euro r to marina south!

Jamified day as what ah thia put it, the traffic was bad.. well Friday night! Happening!!

We had a great time eating and laughing at how the GUYS' belts were expanding! From XL Sean CK to L Jerome and M for Thomass! Pity Mercy and Daniel couldnt join us!!

We ate crabs tat enjoyed their spa session and prawns that were alive! Jerome cooked one with a SLOW death by grilling him...

Drank lots of water and wanted to go into the bowling alley to take a neo print.. but.. its closed down.. guess its not too much in fashion nowsadays! But still we took lots and lots of pictures with the annoyance of all the rest! THomas nearly pulled his hair out! Wah haha! But THomas got his new car wat! NEw JAZZ so we went on a rampant exchanging of cars to test out! Haha! Smooth is the word for CK's car.. and THomass one is POWER! I like!

So then the guy went to carry on their car conversation, while i was busy taking photos, and the 2 went to the toilet and back.. without having any 20cents to pay for it, then left for the toilet again! Hahahah!

Overall it was fun... we met an integra clan, we thought wanted to "qie" them! BUt well, i think they scared la, run off first.. haha!

It was a FUN FUN FUN day!!! Crap sia,some of the things they joke about...

Tired from all that standing, didnt realise we test car, talk about car and stand there for 1 1/2 hours... gosh...

Next week, clementi "zi bao ji" said ck.. two positives.. YEAH RIGHT makes a negative aha hahah!

Jewel

Taking the harder path

2007-06-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

I realised that life has been easy, these past 8 months. Resting, eating, sleeping, enjoying life. Though paradoxically, i am not enjoying it much. I aspire more than these. But I am only willing to put it lesser than it is. Thus, why then in the world will I be able to get the reaped harvest.

All along in life, I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of mediocrity, in fact I tell myself that i am above average. Actually I am mediocre, and perhaps lesser than mediocre. I expect less of myself. How then can i expect others to expect more of me. I think that my personality or character will shine more than my appearance. Like what Pastor Kong said, it is those that think they will normally be more eye catching like mary and martha, martha feels that she has done a lot for church, she is the outspoken one, with initiative and zest to scurry around and be busy. But she was in fact unlike mary, who sat at Jesus' feet and asked for more of him. I am Martha. Busy scurrying around trying to change church, change lives, when I myself am not hungry for the word of God, why then should anyone else that I am trying to influence be.

Martha, is too busy, too full of herself and her own capabilities. I need to step aside, and just be in the presence of the Lord. For once, just dwell and not think that I have contributed so much to church.

I have been excaping all this while. Escaping from the truth and the reality. I have been lazy and unconsistent. I need to change. Its time I learnt how to be a woman. There will not be any Fairy Godmother, who will appear and change me immediately into a Princess. Its not going to be as easy as it seems in the movies. People who made it in life, are all self taught, and self learnt. They aspire and dream, then they go about finding the way to do it. Make full use of their resources to do all that they are able to do.

I have decided that I will face up to my reality and work towards my dream, be disciplined and not be lazy. Be the one that God wlll be proud of.

I will make myself out to be the woman i want to become.

Lord, help me, to walk the path that I should walk, graciously and I will be able to fly higher than an eagle.. I will be able to soar for the Lord.

Amen

Jewel

Stressed

2007-06-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

Feeling very stressed now.. Bills piling up.. and not sure if I am getting the job at IPB.. THink I really need a breakthrough. I will be able to make it through. Will pull through my refinancing deals, as well as get my IPB position, I am still young and will be able to make it through. Lord, please help me.

Jewel

Nancy Drew

2007-06-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Going to watch Nancy Drew later! So excited! haha! Reliving my childhood memories!

Feeling hungry now..

Gotta eat..

Jewel

Ratatouille

2007-06-20T15:02:00.001+08:00

Just saw the trailer for the movie, suddenly filled with the urge of going to Paris. Must be a beautiful country... Longing for the day I can go there with Jerome, just being there enjoying what God has done in our lives.

Jewel

Habits of Life

2007-06-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

I think its amazing how just by changing slightly your habits, by not giving in to my laziness, I can change a day just like that. I finished keying in the leads, and I didnt give in to my sleepiness! Its all about discipline! : )

Jia you!!!

JEwel

Decisions

2007-06-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

"Its not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are." Roy Disney.

I read this same phrase or rather am seeking to understand this same idea while reading 7 Habits of Highly Effective people. What are the inner core values? MY personal mission statement in life. I can seek to make tonnes of money. And neglect whats most important, or seek to add value to what I can achieve and yet be comfortable. Or more than comfortable. Property and Banking. To make a choice seems so difficult but according to Roy Disney, its as easy as ABC. Thats when you know what your values are.

What are my values? When the author asked me to picture my Funeral, picture what my family, friends and colleagues would say about me, I pictured them remembering all the good times we spent together, having coffee, having fun, making sushi, cracking lame jokes, travelling together. I didnt picture them to remember me as someone chasing money. Or rather, I valued time more than money. I will strive hard of course, but looking at how Jerome works in Property, would I really want that? Or would I want my weekends to be peaceful..

There are people who are successful and owning properties while working.

Its not how much you earn, its how much you save and invest.

Its a long journey upwards, but I guess life will be like that.

Signed,
Jewel Tan

Leadership

2007-06-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Its true what Jerome said yesterday of me; I am lost, depressed. And most importantly tired out, thinking I do too much, thinking that I have sacrificed much. Looking back on the days that I have seeked to prove my worth in the bank. But the days are in the past and I have to learn what I need to learn from those lessons. Whether I am ready to accept the huge responsibility that God might have for me. The plans that God has in store for me. To be self employed or rather to go out on my own at a time like this to explore seems fearful. But God will always be there to hold my hand should I fall. The qualities of a leader I read from simpletruths.com gave me new light. The story of Kindness, and yet not expecting anything in return, tat is what I really call an act of kindness. So I see it that sacrifice without expecting anything, without recognition, or complaints is the truest form of rock solid leadership. I need to learn how to do advanced planning and to influence those that I need to influence.

2 weeks from now, I need to take cell. Lord, I pray that you will give me the strength and the ideas and the words you wish for me to share about. Lord, may you take over and let the influence that you wish to have be imparted.

I need strength and most importantly discipline as I step out. I cannot turn back and look and think that the world will stop for me. Only take what I can take. The discipline I had when I first joined Citi. The drive and determination. I will need to succeed to give my parents what they should deserve and before any illnesses or old age comes upon them, I would like them to enjoy life. Most importantly I wish to inspire Jerome and be the woman behind his success. That his family will be ready to accept Christ and most importantly for them to move to another level in life. I must do it. There is no one that will help me but myself. I will trust in the Lord and soar on Eagles wings. Let my life be a testimonial to others and may I be a great leader unto you Lord. I pray that you will give me the Long-term vision, and the strive for excellence in all that I do. That I will Plan, I will be disciplined. And my enthusiasm never be killed... It’s never by me alone... Lord let me take on this responsibility and t sacrifice without complaints, to have the humility in myself, to influence and change lives, and only those that I am able to change Lord. and the Perseverance to go on...

I need to be prepared, to let my siblings take on a new level in life, for my parents to be saved. To change myself for once and for all... to not accept mediocrity as a norm. But to take on my charge in this life. As William Penn said, I will only pass through this life once. I need to make the most out of it, for I will only have one chance. Once chance to be 25. Only once to pass through 5th June 2007.. once its gone, it’s gone forever.

I need to take charge of my life on my own, with God's help. I cannot wait and hide no more. Time waits for no man.

Isaac once said that I will be able to make the devil fear me for what I can do.. Jerome said many a times, that if I put my heart and soul into anything, I will be able to do it. Mr. Ong once said that he is sure I am capable to be successful, all my colleagues thinks I can make it. Dede always thinks I can do it if I set my heart to it. Nicole and Sean think so too. Even Aunty Gwen once said that Jewel, you will the light that shines bright for many to come to Christ. Even Cyn's mum thinks that of me.

Inside of me, I am the only one who thinks that I cannot. I am the only one who thinks tat I cant. I am the only one with the fear.

Lord let me be courageous in you and dare to dream and aspire to fly.

Let my life be glorified unto you.

Amen.

Jewel Tan

A gift from Regina

2007-02-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today I was realy not feeling too good. And God is good, He sent Regina on her way! : ) haha! She was so sweet, she gave me a Red Beetle from her God ma, who drives a green beetle! It was a gift from her to her God ma, and now they gave it to me. It means alot to me. I will attain my dream one day. And it brighten up my day, its great to know that there are people around me that cares for me. She is a great lady!

Amen! Its my blessing to have known her, and may GOd bless her abundantly as well!

Amen!

Jewel

Compliments and Blessings from God

2007-02-02T00:28:00.000+08:00

I want to start counting my blessing from today onwards!

It was a blessing, that my boss decided to pay me for the OD that I signed. Its amazing as i never expected it to come. God knows.

Its been a pleasure working with my 3 customers so far, the working relationship is different. I received a CNY card from one of my customers! It was great! Also, Ms Wong was very nice to even mention me to her RM to make sure that I can learn from him. Its a blessing!

Also for Mr Chang, to know him as a Christian, is a blessing, and also for him to compliment the service that i provided, made me felt that it was worth while.. God has a reason for everything. And may God bless my father in his business. I love my dad, and want to make sure that he succeeds.

Another testimonial is about my bro and his gf. He has decided to make a change in his life, he slept earlier than me today. Its amazing, she went to sleep too. I pray that this will last, and that God will do a miracle in my family.

God is great.

Amen

Billionaire Dream

2007-02-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

My latest aspiration: TO BE A BILLIONAIRE.

Heard from Marcus, that if one were to be a Billionaire, you would have to spend a million dollars every day for three years before finishing up your fortune. It inspired me. Inspired me because then I would be able to do so many things, help so many people. Even if I spend a million dollars buying properties everyday, the law of investments, I might end up making money instead. Haha! : p

Ching Koon said, one day if i were to appear on the newspapers as a Bilionaire, he would eat the papers up, Haha! I think there will be such a day. Amen. But only if God willing.

Amen.

Stirring up of the spirit

2007-02-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

its been a tough time for me. Seemingly I should be more focused in my job and to be able to concentrate. But deep down within me, I am unhappy. I am happy with the friends that I have made with my colleagues. But I am unhappy about where I am, what my abilities are? What my talents are, where can they bring me? I shopped around today and found that I have dreams and ideas and wants and desires, but they all flew away in time. I need an re-organization and a decision to be focused. I need to trust God, for without that trust, I will not be able to find the ability to stay strong in my world today.

Jewel

Our Deep fried Spices Seafood Idea

2007-01-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

wah, darling had this idea for deep fried food with different spices! And we all thought it was a great idea! We are going to work on it! Hee.. Oh and we had impromptu bbq! Fun!!!! It was nice!!! With the food just right, not too much and not too little and the weather was just right... chilly wind and warm bbq fire.. with nice food.. shoulddo this more often..

Hee..

Jewel

God's Miracle Blessings

2007-01-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

Its been an amazing journey for this loan, I was confident of going to meet my customer. But God uses extreme situations to allow us to see that it can only be God and no one else, its not us! When you take care of God's business, he makes sure your business is taken care of. And he showed it to me today. He gave me the approval, and even before i asked for it. Thank you Jesus! So exciting! I need to also learn my lesson, that God has for me. Never to go to an appointment without making sure the customer is alright with the terms and conditions in it. Make sure you think for the customer and if u were in their shoes would you accept the loan?

Its all about empathy and also to be prepared in your field. How do you present a legal document without knowing what are the contents? And I need to learn my lesson, never to "smoke" my way out. I need to add value to myself and learn the terms. That is when I am a different sales person and I can get my pool of customers. Be disciplined now, and keep to my listing. Always update my agents leads, cold call leads, and hot leads. Start cold calling and getting new leads. May God bless me here and lead me to where he wants me to be.

Amen

Jewel

Doing Business

2007-01-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

God always has a greater reason and sometimes we are so blinded by our present that we cannot see the future. I kept questioning God, why he placed me in this place, why SME banking? I trusted in myself, my own vision, my own strength. I did not trust that God will take care of my family burdens financially. But today i ahd some clue of why God place me there.

I met a customer today that blessed my heart, there was a conviction in my heart to strive and try harder for the customer although all the odds were against it. and also I knew that i might not be paid for it. But I just wanted very much to help. And to my pleasant surprise, he is a Christian, and he prayed... he prayed that God might help him to get the loan if it was meant to be.. God is amazing...it can only be Him at work...

He shared with me, the blessings and miracles of God.. how he blessed him.. He said, when he asked God for a thousand, God gave him a million. When he asked God for a million, God gave him millions, I pray now that no problem come over this loan, I declare it in Jesus name to cover it with the blood of the lamb, that this will be a testimony unto God! He made me see that God is there. He said one last thing: Fear God. It was exactly what I read in the Bible, Ecclesiastes that everything is meaning less but Fear God and enjoy what he gives us.

I learnt then not to be a quitter, not to listen to what others have to say but to trust in God and to give him the glory. I was very confident today to sign the loan, but then God taught me a lesson, to know that I need to be prepared and there are lots of things to learn to add value to myself.

Both my customers that i met today told me that in Business there are bound to be failures and people cheating them of money. Its a dark world out there... but God is the light... I think God wants me to be prepared, for what i do not know.. but its all in God's hands..

Amen

Grandma's Birthday

2007-01-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

Today was ah ma's birthday, I had fun, it was great hanging out with my family and cousins.. I wanted to take lots of pictures with my family, so afraid that time will run out, suddenly a fear of losing people came over me, like whats the meaning of life then if it were meant to end. If time was to keep on going and never stop, people coming and going in life..Just like what King Solomon said in his writings, that everything is meaningless, but does that mean so.. he said to fear God, Really afraid of what will happen if I cannot manage to save everyone in my family, I need to do that, save everyone...

I love all of my family and friends, and I need to first share with the ones closest to me.. May God save them Lord, may you give them peace at heart.

Jewel

God answers prayers

2007-01-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

I jus read thr my blog entry for yesterday... i wanted God to do a miracle for me cos i did not know how to bring the topic of God up.. and my grandma was the one who brought it up n say tt my aunty's uncle was on his death bed and they wnet to say their last words. and someone prayed for him and he was miraculously healed! Amen...

That is a testimonial by itself, that my grand ma will be saved!

Amen! I am inspired!

There is HOPE!

Jewel

Unrest in the spirit

2007-01-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

May the God
of hope fill you
with all joy and
peace as you trust
in Him, so that you
may overflow with
hope by the power
of the Holy Spirit.

-- Romans 15:13

I am really feeling lots of unrest today... first was apostle in hospital, now its my grandmother..
and it might be stroke... understand the fear that everything is really like chasing the wind..
what can i control.. then i came across this verse.. when i first read it, didnt mean anything
to me.. but then i went back n read it again.. I really need all the joy and peace that God will give n i need
to place all my trust in him...

Amen...

Jewel Tan

Just not too good

2007-01-16T08:09:00.000+08:00

Today when I woke up, I just cant go to work, my nose is killing me. Think its the overweariness...

Need rest....

So many things happening, the weather is terrible.. but i know one thing for sure, God is still on the throne.. Someone out there is getting married this weekend, someone's baby is about to be birthed! Someone just got a dream job, a pay increment, a new found relationship. Someone is planning to propose later in the evening...

There were times when i looked out and remembered that while I am here experiencing this now, someone is out there experiencing another thing. Today I really felt that I needed space.. first time in my life I felt that way..

Very tired to face a lot of things... Very sick to think..

Jewel Tan

Life is chasing after the wind

2007-01-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

So many things have happened in the span of a week. Apostle is still in ICU, and my grandma is also in hospital. They say that her heart moved.. into the centre of her chest. Mummy said that her heart has all along been very weak. Very afraid, she is not saved yet, I do not know when to start how to say it and what to do. I need to have faith. It seems impossible. But all things are possible with God..

She seemed happy to see us today, felt so bad that I only arrived so late.. Really need to pray for her. Need strength to continue.. Feeling sick now, wanted to take MC tomolo, but I wish to work too.. Need the money, and also need to think how i should handle pasi's problem. Should he go ahead, will it be a curse... God, I need your help. I need you to work a miracle Lord.

You are the God of Miracles. Lord, I pray that you will show me a clear direction. I realise now that I was over-reliant on apostle, that he would always be there, guiding and giving me advice.. Its time to grow up...

Its time to hear from God and grow closer to him.. Yesterday was a sign that God gave me, He is so close to me.. he knows my troubles and what I am thinking. He knows the trouble that I am going through and he will keep me strong, my family strong, apostle strong.

I learnt never to take ou lives for granted, never to take our mobility and ability to speak for granted.. That we need to treasure all that we have..

I need to rest.. need to be able to think properly..

May God allow me to rest well and for tomorrow to be a great day!

Amen.

Jewel Tan

My Jie Jie's Housewarming

2007-01-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

I enjoyed myself today at my cousin's housewarming today, so nice the house! : ) But the most important part is the fellowship and we as a famly sat down and chit chat and talked and laughed! : ) Thats the fun part about it.. Wanna do a photo Archive for my family so that whenever I invite them they can take a look! : )

Jewel

My first Snow Globe from US

2007-01-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

I bought a 25th anniversary Precious Moments Snow Globe from US and it finally arrived!!! : )

Its beautiful, actually its relative inexpensive.. but the shipping cost is ... double the price...

Gosh... so beautiful...

So happy! Wanna go US to buy more!

New Thoughts for Budgeting

2007-01-04T00:44:00.001+08:00

Isaac got a PSP from Scratch and Win! haha!!! Thinking if i should buy from him, haha! but I think that I really do not need it, sigh and ya its true, my bro already got one already it will be extra cost for 2007. This year I wanna budget myself and that is my resolution! Amen! Will keep to that! Okie, guess he can get a better deal to sell it off on the net!! : (

Jewel

My re-construction plan Day One

2007-01-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday there was this box of mess here in my room.. Thank Goodness that its cleared now.. THanks to everyone! haha!

Today was a better day for the re-construction plan, cleared much more clutter in the store room as well as in the room. Need to find a place for everything and made a resolution not to buy anymore! Found so much more stuff toys and photographs.

1. Need to find how to keep stuff toys
2. Need to find if there is a scanner for photographs

This Saturday will be another full day for clearing, about clearing all the mess, need to re-design the house. Need to form a clipboard to find out about that.

3. Also need to budget for the photo negatives. Scan them into CDs.

The Bridge Club

2007-01-02T03:47:00.000+08:00

Isaac suggested that we start forming hobby clubs, and someone mentioned Bridge club! haha! Cannot remember who is the one who suggested, great idea! Haha! We had an inauguration game last night and tonight was our first league! Whooo Hooo! And darling held the championship cup! Haha! And won a Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream! Kindly sponsored by Isaac! It was funny and I think it really bonds our teams together! Very happy that dar enjoyed himself, his enjoyment is really undescribable.. But its good, when he plays and when he works, he does both in the extremes!

Wanted to post the bridge club pictures here! Sigh! Its still with Charlotte! Should be quite cool! First runner up is Malcolm and then Juvena.. And Charlotte is the "Crow" 3rd runner up!

The funniest things that happened today was Malcolm's "2 no spade" haha! Seriously he is the winner of the "crow league"! Up to the point that when we were talking about marinating, he said "Oh you all finish renovating already?" WHere is the link???? hahah!!! Renovating = marinating.. hmmm...

Haha! Most wonderful part also is that JiaXin and Tham came today and we managed to celebrate Juvena, JiaXin and Alex's birthday! Glad that liked the books we bought them! I pray that it will bless them tremendously!!!

Oh and not I must remember that Thomson plaza's daily gifts Christian Shop is very good!!!! I actually found lots of precious moments things there that I am unable to find elsewhere! I also bought a little cross for me !!! Precious moments one..

Hah! Okie.. think I am getting sleepy.. need sleep!

Jewel

My first thoughts of the new year: 2007

2007-01-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

There are a lot of resolutions I made this year, and I really wish to grow spiritually, to be able to help grow the cell and it was my prayer that our cell will double by the end of 2007 or even earlier. A motivation to put the best of my abilities into fulfilling my destiny that God has for me. Aunty Gwen reminded me at watch night service, that my prophecy one day is to travel and minister with a back pack and with my bibles. Perhaps, Pastor Rachel also prophesy that this year 2007 I will be going on A mission trip.. The first thought i had was if tis is one of the alternate years that GB is going over to Chiang Rai for Mission trip.. I need to pray about this..

I am unclear of where God wants me to be now, but apostle saw a vision of me standing in front of a propetrty with a clipboard, so up till now its still in Citibank.. May the Lord once more use me to achieve greater heights. That last year although i will notget sales champion, that this year I will in CitiBusiness.

2007 resolutions I have not yet had time to fully digest them, these 2 days have been fun and fun and fun,, not much work to be done.. Well the days of concentration on work has come back again.. Its time also I need to get my momentum going. And to start on my globe business as well.. Cannot wait for my globe to be delivered to me soon..

I need more passion in my life, and not to stagnate myself in what I am doing. I need to seek to improve myself, character, knnowledge and many more.

May 2007 be a great year of change.. May the Lord bless all that I am doing..

In Jesus name...

Amen..

Jewel Tan

The effects of life

2006-12-30T13:35:00.000+08:00

I never realised the effects of the tsunami when I went to Phuket, the very place where the tsunami hit just 2 months ago.. Watching tsunami the aftermath on HBO and my heart broke.. I would never be able to understand the fears and the devastating hope that they have if they lose their family.. Lord, bless the people who helped, bless them Lord... In this movie, its real, its not the fictional movies, where they will definitely save the people at the end of it. Its different from the movies, it will not end with a happy ending, only a story of how they will remain strong and courageous to move on in life. Life is the truth like that... We need to know that life carries on, we need to treasure the people around. We need to...

Amen...

Jewel

Spring Cleaning my home

2006-12-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today I had one day of leave, think I was too ambitious, wanted to do lots of things.. Sigh kind of regretted it. Cos Darling got to do lots of things.. And he got very upset, cos he had lots of things to clear too.. But I understood one thing from here, that I am ready to settle down with him, no matter how much he is upset with me, he still loves me and helps me with everything. He will never walk out of me.. Lots of bills to settle and lots of things to do, but somehow, with him around and after the sermon on tentmakers, I feel very safe and secured. I had a good talk with my family today too, about future plans, I think its wonderful... But tired, tomorrow is a long day at work too, wanna settle all my work and get ready pipe line for January.

Lots of things on my mind, need to work hard...

May God bless my home.

Amen

Jewel

Christmas Dinner with Family

2006-12-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

Had a great xmas family dinner! So happy that i bought wallets for my dad n darling! my dad's wallet was already spoilt! :)
And darling always wanted a wallet! And gave my brother and my mum nice presents! But I think my sister's present is not her ideal! But well will find nicer ones next time! Haha! but I really like the the towel! Hahah! But it was nice, I like giving presents!

Sigh... I want to have a good night's sleep..

Love,
Jewel....

Old Folks Home

2006-12-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

Today I had an experience of a life time... Its been a long time since I last felt this way.
I remember when I was younger and attended all the mission events i told myself that when I grow up I
will make a difference to the people around me. I saw the old folks today... and it makes me feel so sad, that
these people have no body to care for them, that their loved ones actually placed them there to just spend their entire
old age there being lonely.. What do they need money for? They need love, and I do not know how to explain to them about
love in their dialect.. How do you do that? Can there be more people to love and care, can these people's children come back and love them??

I pray that God will use me greatly to minister to these people around me, that I can make a difference, I do not know how,
but Lord guide me... teach me... help me to guide them to know you, that they will not be empty...

Amen

My family birthday celebration 2006

2006-11-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

I had a great birthday still working but enjoying my work! : )

And had a great teppanyaki steam boat dinner with my family.. And my mummy bought me a snow globe too! Same kind as Darling... wah haha! But different design... its a little girl lying down and reading a book, just like me.. And a beautiful dark chocolate cake! Wonderful! A beautiful end of the day to my 24th Birthday... Oops.. getting older...

My Birthday Celebration 2006

2006-11-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

I had a great birthday party this year, all thanks to darling and my friends...
I had a really nice candlelight dinner @ Secret Garden, with pink balloons all around.. Specially up by darling! : )
Accompanied by Triple Chocolate Dessert... Oooo... Haha! And after dessert.. He went to answer a mysterious call.. haha!
I really had such a great surprise to hear a birthday song sung by many.. I turned around to see all my lovely friends

there with my dream birthday cake - THE CUPCAKES.. SO nice...

Haha ! I told CASS this surprise was 100/100 haha! really unexpected.. And a beautiful pink flower... And Dede, bee and thia bought me a tremendous gift, an encouragement to my future dream dessert corner... Really pretty.... and adorable.. Wonderful...

And to top it all off.. was the little snow globe with a boy and a girl sitting on a bench.. and darling said: " reading the bible together" ... An end to a lovely evening...

My travel log: Bangkok, Thailand July 2006

2006-11-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

This year went to Thailand with company and stayed at Pratunam Princess...

Nice place, with paser malams right downstairs...

Actually shopping at the place opposite "Mabukrong" was nice, a young generation touch to the atmosphere..

CHeap shoes too!!! : ) It was interesting to just hop on to the cab and travel around to see where's nice.. Doesnt seem nice to go to the shopping centres to buy things. The cost seems nearly the same as Singapore.. Nothing different..

But the pasar malams the little shops sell unique and relatively inexpensive things..

Oh but I found something that i really liked in Mabukrong.. A japanese figurine with the milk girl and milk boy, expensive.. He mentioned it was limited edition, a little toy shop like our Action City there sold these Japan figurines. The figurine was the shop front of a little cafe...selling cakes and drinks.. so adorable.. like my dream cafe in future..

Jewel's round the world diary...

Awwwww.... Beautiful

2006-11-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

All that clear water is God's creations!!!!

Tioman Trip!

2006-11-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to Elysia!!! It was a GREAT TRIP!!!!!!!!!